*the love and grace of God in my life..*

Tuesday, August 03, 2010

i think i'm slowly starting to forget about my blog ever since i started using facebook and stopped using computer when i'm home in the evening
it's definitely being neglected.

august has just started and the sermon on sunday was so apt - to be salt and light in my workplace.
it was tough and i felt horrible since i knew i had to transfer to my current unit
there were many reasons why i didn't want to and probably because i didn't want to face up to them, i started end may and early june with a really sour mood

i dreaded coming to office almost every morning and on certain days, i really wanted to just quit and find a new job
i thank God i didn't. not that i absolutely love every single thing/person now, but at least i'm feeling a lot better

i went through the entire july without taking a single day of leave and it was also the month where i started doing my new job scope etc
i haven't exactly gotten on really close terms with everyone yet but at least when i come into the office in the morning, i don't feel isolated.
there is still a particular colleague who irritates me to no end at times, but i'm trying (in fact, struggling) to say 'good morning' to her everyday when i pass by her workstation.

jiayou! =)

//posted by ivy @ 15:18//

Tuesday, June 08, 2010

mondays have never felt so good before
it was a rainy morning yesterday and i managed to catch a little bit more sleep becos hubby decided to drive me to work
what luxury - slept till late, washed up and was chauffered to work

just when i thought the privilege was only for a day, it happened again this morning
yet another rainy morning and even though he could have slept a lot longer (he's on holiday now!), he woke up and drove me down to work
and instead of thinking what to dabao on the way home for him, he called a while back to say that he'll come fetch me from work, and we'll go for japanese buffet at mt faber
wow! i'm so pampered! =)

heh

//posted by ivy @ 18:03//

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

half the agony of the husband being overseas is over - it's wed today and he's coming back on sat night
honestly, i can't wait for him to be back!

the whole house just seems to lack something these few days; it's really lonely at home and i dislike that feeling
thank God for Skype so at least i get to see him and talk to him every night - that's the only reason why i'll choose to rush home after dinner appointment even though the night is still young

at teachers' network for a training now
it has been a packed week and not any better next week - bleahz!

i miss hubby!

//posted by ivy @ 14:56//

Friday, May 21, 2010

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
i've been thoroughly occupied at work these couple of weeks and it's not going to get any better with the preparation for handover of my current job to my colleague soon and learning new things all over again

good-bye Ps/VPs of W2 and W5.
i'm definitely gonna miss the time with them on the phone! =(

and hubby is flying off tmr night
for a good 8 days, i'll be home alone
with a car which i can't drive to work becos parking is costly
with a big big house all to myself (xiao-qiang, pls do not appear!)
with a lonely thursday next week (you owe me a big celebration when you're back!)
booohooooo~

//posted by ivy @ 16:06//

Friday, May 14, 2010

i don't feel good
in fact, it has been this feeling since last thurs
i did convince myself for a while that the change can't be that adverse; after all, it's all part of learning the different aspects of things

it didn't make me feel any better after last fri's cell
we talked about knowing our skills, passion and gifting at workplace
i thought i knew.. and i am still pretty convinced that i do - which essentially just makes me more depressed
becos im doing job scopes that totally do not fit into the areas

maybe i'm just anti-change, and especially so when it's taking away what i loved and putting me into a totally new area
ahhhhhh! i feel so crappy now!

//posted by ivy @ 13:55//

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

it was quite a crazy week at work last week
rushing many things and especially the need to finish a paper for submission to perm secretary when i don't have many info i needed
it wasn't easy and i wished i can just have all the info and help i need
after all, papers to perm secretary cannot be delayed!
i did it anyway, and left office on friday feeling really satisfied

was very determined to cook dinner during the weekend and so i did
i even cooked for my neighbours becos we wanted to watch "star awards 2010" together so i provided the dinner and they provided durians!

last week was especially straining because i had appointments every night after work - it was mentally draining and i really just want to head home and enjoy the evening watching tv or just disturbing my husband while he works
i made it through last week and the tireness was gone when i see my mentees (thank you girls!) and the YAMmies (thank you yammies!)

this week isn't any better
in preparation for church's 10th anniversary, we're putting up a dance this sun
additional practice on top of what we already need to do for dance ministry's 1st anniversary two weeks later
i managed to skip all the dance pracs last two weeks becos of mentoring and i really didn't want to change the dates
but i had no choice this week so reluctantly, i told the girls we won't be meeting this week
it was also good to give them the break and while i make my way to dance yesterday, i was glad for the fruitful practice but on top of that, i could meet other yammies as well
looking back, i always whined that i have no time to meet other people becos evenings are really precious to me.. and though i can't meet my mentees, i could meet violet and angeline and even janice koh!
so.. it was good! and i'll see them again on wed! =)

i'm stealing time from work to type all these down because i'm ever so thankful to God for His strength, for the God-given abilities and wisdom I need at work, for the God-sent mentees who in turn encouraged me though i couldn't meet them this week, and for my dear husband who showers me with much love when i go home each night.

thank you, God!

//posted by ivy @ 11:02//

Monday, April 19, 2010

i truly thank God for the work He's doing in the midst of the Young Adults and believe that we will see even greater things in time to come
but we really need to rise up even as God brings people into our midst

people see me as being confident, as being adequate, as being capable enough to lead and to make decisions
but do you really see and know what goes through my mind at times?
I feel inadequate as well, not knowing how to and if i could, i would gladly not want to be making decisions, planning things, taking the lead.. after all, sitting back and being taken care of is the greatest luxury, isn't it?

i know i've been taken care of in the past, and there're still people taking care of me in their own ways now - i've received/still receiving and i've been blessed.
and i know that as i choose to give and allow God to use me despite my personal feelings of inadequacy, He is going to teach me more things and the more i feel inadequate, the more i'll depend on Him.

i'm praying that as young adults whom most of us have seen each other grow up and into our different phase of life, we will stand firm together and allow God to use us as He wishes

I have decided to follow Jesus
I have decided to follow Jesus
I have decided to follow Jesus
No turning back, no turning back

//posted by ivy @ 10:55//

Thursday, April 15, 2010

God, thank you for the people you're bringing into the midst of YAM, and may we see your goodness and your hands in this! =)

there must be more that we can do for your Kingdom,
teach us to do so, allow us to do so..
and more importantly, be with us!

//posted by ivy @ 16:41//

Friday, April 09, 2010

30 more mins before my entire west zone unit leave office and head down to suntec ballroom for promotion ceremony
big-scale one where minister is invited

i hope it ends promptly, so that i can meet my beloves yammies for dinner and make it in time for yam! =)

//posted by ivy @ 10:32//

Wednesday, April 07, 2010

so many things to thank God for!

i thank God for placing wonderful young adults in the ministry
i thank God for the various individuals He has sent to encourage me when i was feeling disappointed and wondering if i was doing the right thing at all
i thank God for leaders who watch over me and constantly ensure that i was alright, for their affirmation and for their love
i thank God for leaders who accept me for my flaws even as i serve alongside them in the ministries
i thank God for a sensitive heart that i'm able to sense and minister to people in need
i thank God for a God-fearing husband, who loves me with all he has, and who supports me wholeheartedly in my ministries
i thank God for wonderful parents who brought me up with good values
i thank God for wonderful in-laws who never exert any form of pressure on me

simply awesome! =)

//posted by ivy @ 10:23//