*the love and grace of God in my life..*

Monday, September 29, 2003

okie..this is fast.
i have exactly 4 more weeks of lessons, which are mainly rushing projects, reports in the midst of attending lects, catching up on my readings and doing tutorials.
after which, im going off to johor for the retreat.
den i have a week to study for exams.
and then..
the arrival of exams...which will last me for exactly 2 weeks!

so.. in effectively 7 weeks' time, my holidays will arrive!
how nice..

how stress..

i've been slacking the entire day. doing nothing except planning a bit for camp and watching tv.
hahaz.

was rather glad when i received news of si-er's mum's condition.
it's improved.. =)

//posted by ivy @ 20:59//

Friday, September 26, 2003

back from hospital.
went down, had a time of prayer..

came back with sabby, kiyomi and jonathan.
had a short talk with sabrina.
i juz let her talk on.. let her speak her mind and her thoughts..
i din say much.. or rather i din really know wad can i say.
lending her my ears was the best thing i thought i could do.

going off to rest soon. i got lessons from 830-430 tmr.
it's a long day.

continue to lift Si-er's mum in our prayers yah?

//posted by ivy @ 00:16//

Wednesday, September 24, 2003

life is unpredictable..
no one knows wad will happen next..
but wadever happens..
God has breathed His plans into it..

all we can do is ..
trust and obey.

//posted by ivy @ 00:45//

Monday, September 22, 2003

her tears flowed down..
uncontrollably.. down her cheeks..
it's been 20 mins..
she's still crying.

she doesn't know how to stop.
it's been upsetting her since she was young..
how do you expect her to stop?
to stop crying?
to think that things will be alright?

her parents are upset, worried
so is she.
she is a girl.
she treasures vanity, beauty.
but all these seem so far away for her.

yes.
she knows she is beautiful and wonderfully created in God's eyes.
she knows God has given her so many wonderful things in her life
-the ability to excel in her studies to give Him the glory
-parents who love her and want the best for her
-friends around her who are supportive
-a loving boyfriend
-and many many others.

she remembers Pastor once said "God has given you the very thing in life - His Son. What more can you ask for? Why are you still feeling unsatisfied?"

at that moment, she feels lost.
she questions God.
"God.. you say that you will give me the desire of my heart. you say you yearn to give the very best for your child. you love me dun you?
*silence

what a question to ask God. she knows.
it's YES.

then why Lord?
why is it that my prayer for all these years has never been answered?
why?

all i ask for is healing of my skin. period.
...

//posted by ivy @ 13:46//

Sunday, September 21, 2003

i forced myself to wake up, washed up..
but i din make it past the stage of changing and getting out.

and i was suddenly jolted out of my sleep..
'oh no..i got a meeting later'..
no choice.. i asked tina to take over.

washed up again..came online to check stuffs and i saw arlene online.
haiz.. both sicklies.. hahz.

a piece of good news for now.
Youth Camp 2003
venue : st. marg's pri.
date : 15th - 18th Dec (mon-thurs)

mark them out in your calenders.. avoid appointments, travel plans, chalets..
cos this is the camp that you will NOT wanna miss..
trust me.. it'll change you. and me.

//posted by ivy @ 12:41//

Friday, September 19, 2003

it's friday! finally..
fri spells almost the end of the academic week.
juz one more lect to go tmr morn.. after which, we have consultation for proj.
then..im off for music meeting.

i have a rather interesting up-coming in-class assignment next week.
each group is pretending that they are from this particular company.. and now wanting to either buy in employees or retrench them.
we're told to bring $20 to class.. in terms of $1 note, 50 cents, 20 cents and so on.
and so.. we'll be using our "company fund" of $20 to purchase valuable employees which we need..
hahaz!
sounds like playing 'monopoly' last time.

okie..at least that is something for me to look forward to ..

quite a lot to do this weekend. well, i better be disciplined enough to finish them up..and not stack till the end of the sem.
i've learnt from year 1.

if ever an activity could cause me to drop tears..it's the dreadful NS.
though it's still a year to dear's enlistment.. i wish it'll never come. =(

//posted by ivy @ 18:24//

Thursday, September 18, 2003

finally is thurs.
my free day.
got elective lect today and my tutor promised it's the most interesting lect today.
i went to check my course outline.
lect topic for today is 'erotic passion'.
well, im not going.
hahz.

went to see the doc again yday.
he gave me stronger med..usual stuffs
ask me rest, dun eat heaty food, cold drinks.

got back my group report yday.
hard work of 3 days paid off.
two groups in class received an A+ ; our group was one of them.
=)

i like cell yday.
though i was tired and sleepy.. but i appreciate the time of sharing we had before teaching.

//posted by ivy @ 13:18//

Tuesday, September 16, 2003

something is very wrong..
my cough juz dun seem to go away for good.
i was coughing the entire morning.
and i juz took my temp.. slight fever again!

argh....why?

//posted by ivy @ 22:03//

i din get pastor to do it in the end..
i emailed pst dennis last night..
and he replied!

the email says:..
"Dear Ivy,

Pse be informed that we are not using the premise on the dates u mentioned. Pse gp ahead and may you have a blessed and anointed camp.
God bless.
pr den"

whoa.. i almost jumped.
have been checking my mail the entire day for this mail.
hahaz.

will call smps to cfm again tmr..
phew..
at least we're saved from anglican house.

//posted by ivy @ 20:41//

Monday, September 15, 2003

school is resuming tmr.
i've done my tutorial for tmr though.

predicting that i'll have two reports to write and a presentation to prepare on wed night. wonder will i be right?

this week looks mundane. it's school everyday. and sat has got to be my longest day this week.

was having tuition when SMPS called me. they thought i was under Rev. Dennis Lee (somewhere that line)..and so, they told me "i thought we've oredi confirmed the campsite with you long ago?"
*scratch head..

"no.." was my reply while i think hard..
ah! they thought i called from SAC..
diaoz..

but anyway..that lady told me.."go check with dennis lee. if he wans to cancel, then you can have it."..
...
......
..........
i shan't do it.
not me..

i shall ask..
Pastor!
=)

//posted by ivy @ 23:07//

Saturday, September 13, 2003

so irritating.
this always happens in proj groups.. and especially so this time..cos there is 8 of us!
when there is a need for presentation, everyone pretend as if their email or icq are not working.. nv see them online, nv reply mail.
what kinda attitude is this?

my term break is over.
and i've got 10% of my work done.
how nice..
great..

now im in deep soup when school starts again.

//posted by ivy @ 22:23//

Thursday, September 11, 2003

jialat.. im not getting any better.
my head weighs a ton, and im still coughing..arghh..

shall pay the doc a visit after lunch..
in fact..i dun even feel like eating.

i cancelled my tuition today..
but tmr got to meet up for proj early in the morn..
10am at Raffles City BK.
i hope i can make it.

this term break hasn't been as fulfilling as i thought.
and true enough, it's flying past so fast.
today is thurs leh..
haiz.
i haven been catching up on my stuffs..cos i've been sleeping for nearly 12 hours everyday.
it's gross being sick!

//posted by ivy @ 13:13//

Monday, September 08, 2003

i'm voice-less..
argh...

waiting for my lunch b4 i make my way down to school's medical centre.
i hate pills.. yucks.

//posted by ivy @ 12:25//

Saturday, September 06, 2003

i've had a long night rest..

went for Joshua 21 yday at VFC. the preacher is good..he caught my attention for 100% throughout the entire sharing.. of cos, there were instances when i was falling asleep but im still listening to him. =)
it's juz hard to sit up straight for 2 hours..hehz.

i thank God for diana. she's my classmate whom i juz got to know much better these 2 weeks..was talking to her in icq.. and her first qn was "are u christian?".
whoa..i was caught by surprise. said yes..
and she said "im too.."
and the conversation started from there..
she is from city harvest..
and we shared about the different struggles we faced.. all the commitments in church make us weary at times.
she told me about the weekly meeting of all chc students..on wed. for a time for praise & worship and the Word.
we shared abt bgr stuffs, church's stand.. etc etc..

woah! im amazed at how God brings certain people into my life at the correct timing..
we were talking about how to go abt inviting people..and listing out who are christians..and who are the ones who are more open..

wow.. im still amazed.
God is good. always good.
always amazing.

//posted by ivy @ 14:06//

Friday, September 05, 2003

im done with my COE presentation for tmr..
hmm, beneficial presentation. now i know all about coe bidding, quotas, categories etc etc.
hehz.. but not as if im getting my car or something. *daydream..

tmr is a long day.
i've got a stressful tut from 830-1030.
discussion abt the mice experiment and abt report from 1030-1230; inclusive of lunch as well.
seminar from 1230-430.
mayb tuition from 5-630..
and after which, i most prob going down VFC for the josh 21 talk.

interesting elective i had juz now. we were each given a questionnaire and supposed to discuss with each other our answers..
some of the questions were..
1. Is there a person who is able to accept you for who you are unconditionally?
2. Is having a deep spiritual relationship important to you?
3. Name three things you can't live without.

and for a moment, i realised the immense peer pressure i was under.
most people answer "parents", "friends", "boyfriend/girlfriend"..for qn 1..and of cos, we all know that they are not the ones.
answers for qn 2 were a strong "NO"..
and almost all had "boyfriends/girlfriends", "money"..for qn 3..

wat abt me?
well, i struggled.
answer for qn 1: Yes. the person is none other than my God.
answer for qn 2: Yes.
answer for qn 3: boyfriend, God and joy.

i got weird stares.. and queer looks.

//posted by ivy @ 00:01//

Thursday, September 04, 2003

my head feels heavy although i slept so much. slept at 1 last night i think.. and woke up at 11 this morn.
din manage to do much stuffs except to finish one report which is to be handed up tmr.
there's a COE presentation which im supposed to prepare for tmr morn.. but i think i'll do it tonight. it's a 4 mins thingy.
i got elective later.. 4pm-7pm.

blog more tonight. maybe.

//posted by ivy @ 14:25//

Tuesday, September 02, 2003

AAARRRRRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

*deep breath...

//posted by ivy @ 00:18//

Monday, September 01, 2003

eeks.. i din have a good nite rest last night.
31st august definitely din trigger a good memory in me.

sometimes, i wish im absent-minded. those who can't remember dates for nuts..

i've got a test on wed to study for. but i can't concentrate.
help.

//posted by ivy @ 13:05//