*the love and grace of God in my life..*

Tuesday, October 28, 2003

my first paper is in less than 7 days' time..
argh..
stressssssss...

im more worried for my papers the next next week..
cos i got 3 papers in 5 days but the thing being that two of them are super impt. core modules of HR.
and im still stuck at my rev for my first paper only..
how pathetic..

and i can't seem to push myself to study.
mayb i shld set an unknown password to my comp.. so i can't turn it on for the next 2 weeks..

ok. im crazy.

//posted by ivy @ 20:15//

Sunday, October 19, 2003

sometimes i question God why..
twice this year, my mum was admitted juz weeks before my exams, during the crucial preparation period.
i still remb how nervous i was last sem.. not having her at home means i gotta do everything except cooking. my dad will do it.
but i gotta do the rest..and it's so tiring.
at times, i wished my dad dun cook.. cos i got to clear up the mess after he does so.

i dunno how is she now.. she said not to go down today cos she can't move abt so no pt going down
but my dad told me she might need another operation tmr... if the x-ray result isn't good.
they suspect complications from the operation she had in april.. mentioned something like her large intestines might be bleeding internally.
and the scary thing is that after two packs of blood, her blood count remains at ard the same.
normal ppl has a count of about 10 plus.. hers is 6.1
super low.

nothing i can do except pray.

//posted by ivy @ 20:43//

Thursday, October 16, 2003

i had an assignment due at 12 noon today..
was too tired to do it last night so i decided to wake up at 7 to do.. ample time for me to complete.
little did i know... i super overslept! woke up at 930!
a shock i had.. hurried to my comp, and started typing furiously till 1115. got my classmate who stays in hall to hand in for me while i take my own sweet time to bathe and get my butt to cant 2 for lunch. den to project discussion

went for my last elective.. whoa, and the tutor is good!
he told us specifically which topic will come out.. but he wans us to analysis the qn so that we can score better than the norm.
well.. i spotted 4 qns.. and im juz gonna conc on those for the exams.

for now.. i need to complete my research on thailand cos there is discussion tmr morn.
on sat, i have my last acctg lect, followed by discussion and first round presentation.
sun, im free.. no meeting!! yay..
next mon is another round of presentation before the actual one on tues.
tues im having a final presentation of 20%..
then it's report rushing time again.
after handing in report and another presentation on thurs.. im officially free!.

oh okie.. not really.. cos that is the time for exams..

i feel better now..at least there is juz a few days more to revision time. no more rushing of reports and preparing presentations.

i dunno how to study for exams.. cos there's only one week.
no one knows how to.
everyone was whining in school today.

i shan't go on.
shall juz study.. go for exams..
and den.. have my well-deserved break.

//posted by ivy @ 20:29//

Tuesday, October 14, 2003

im soooooo stressed.
i got a 20% presentation next tues... muz wear formally somemore.
following that, there's a 20 pages report due on thurs
and..
this thurs noon, a 5% written proposal..

gosh...
how am i going to find time to study for my exams?
after all the stuffs, it's only a week to my final exams..
oh no..
oh no..

panicky panic..

saw this in cherlyn's blog..

Adultery happens when you start looking for what you don't have.
"Wow, this girl in my office is a real looker. I'm crazy about her because she's also understanding, intelligent, tender - so many things that my spouse is not."

Somewhere along the way,
you'll find a woman or a man who will be more charming or sensitive.
More alluring.
More thoughtful.
Richer.
Have greater sex appeal.
And you will find a woman or man who will need you and pursue you and go loco over you more than your spouse ever did.

Because no wife or husband is perfect.

Because a spouse will only have 90% of what you're looking for.
So adultery takes place when a husband or wife looks for the missing 10%.

Let's say your wife is melancholic by nature. You may find yourself drawn to the pretty clerk who has a cherry laughter.

Or because your wife is a homebody in slippers and pyjamas, smelling of garlic and fish oil, you may fall for a fresh-smelling young sales representative that visits your office in a sharp black blazer, high heels, and a red pencil-cut skirt.

Or because your husband is the quiet type, your heart may skip a beat when you meet an old college flame who has the makings of a talk show host.

But wait! That's only 10% of what you don't have.

Don't throw away the 90% that you already have!
Add to your spouse's 90% the 100% that represents all the years that you have been with each other.

The storms you have weathered together.
The unforgettable moments of sadness and joy as a couple.
The many adjustments you have made to love the other.The wealth of memories that you've accumulated as lovers.

Adultery happens when you start looking for what you don't have.
But faithfulness happens when you start thanking God for what you already have

hmm..?

//posted by ivy @ 18:43//

Sunday, October 12, 2003

last two weeks of school before one week break! yippie....
eh? i shouldn't be rejoicing.. cos it's so packed!

for eg.. im going school tmr at 10am.
this is first time entering into school compound on a mon..i nv had to go school on a mon
all cos of proj discussion..
gross..
i've been having dozens of them..

but well, at least i do have something to look forward to..
cos im meeting dearie for dinner!
yay!

=)

//posted by ivy @ 23:37//

Saturday, October 11, 2003

i din manage to wake up at 7 as scheduled
woke up at 1210 in fact.. had a headache when i woke up so i went back to sleep for another hour..
and i realised i needed more than that.

anyway, im done with the report..
one down, two more to go.

oh ya, im doing a presentation on thailand next next week.. im required to find out everything abt thailand..including how to speak the basic stuffs..hahz
this is gonna be fun.

//posted by ivy @ 15:15//

i've had such a long day.. i din know how i make it through..
juz back from sier's mum's wake..
first time at a christian funeral..
it's so distinctly different from a traditional wake.

im gonna sleep now.. and wake up 7 hours from now to rush my assignment report.
i done one last night.. now is another one.
and there's still two more to go.

good nitez.
i miss you dear.

//posted by ivy @ 00:23//

Thursday, October 09, 2003

it's bad night yday night.. and a bad day today..
i was getting irritated with person after person yday.. from the evening till midnight.
and today.. from afternoon till evening..

grrr.. this has got to be my worst week in school this sem!

cell was small today..
it feels good.. feels very much like cell group. there's only 6 of us altogether.
but we still finish the fruit prepared! hehz.

i gotta sleep soon.
got a dozen thing to do every day.
tmr -- tuition, elective presentation, report at night.

//posted by ivy @ 00:08//

Tuesday, October 07, 2003

im done with my budget.
and submitted it too.
took me 3 hours! oh manz..
i managed to balance it in the end.. with the help of my classmate..

elective report is done as well.
yippie!!

now that leaves me with accounting report, compensation & benefit report/presentation and HR report/presentation.
i wanna finish up the acctg report tmr.. how ambitious huh?

gotta prepare for wed cell tmr too.. haven chosen my songs.

sleepy.
time to zzz.
gd nite

//posted by ivy @ 00:34//

Monday, October 06, 2003

done my elective's presentation for this coming thurs.
one down..
5 more to go..

im going to finish my budget planning today.
it's due on fri..but it's only 5%.
shan't spend too much time on it.
anyway..my tutor said 'it's going to be hard to balance the account.. 5 marks only.. even if you dun balance, i'll still give you 4 - 4.5 marks..'
hmmm, that's a great incentive not to try too hard..

most of my classmates done it ler.. they took around 3 to 4 hours..
wad a waste of time.. that amt of time for not more than 5 marks allocated.

shall see how.

//posted by ivy @ 14:34//

Friday, October 03, 2003

See what Care Bear you are.

how true..
haha.

//posted by ivy @ 22:25//

Thursday, October 02, 2003

oh no.. juz received a sms from one of my very hardworking classmates..
she told me abt the elective presentation we have to do next thurs.. 30%.
and i haven been to elective lect for the past 3 weeks.. !!

oh no oh no..
where got time to do elective presentation when we're already so busy with core modules..
and the other 2 ppl in our grp are from yr 4 eng and yr 2 comp eng.. both guys insisted that they're busy beings.. commented on how short biz students' timetable is.. and thus, ask us to do.
aargrghhhh.. so irritating hor?

anyway, im gonna read up on budgeting now.. and try to understand my tutorial.
cos i got an assignment due next week..where im supposed to do budgetin for a company.. but i got no idea how to do it..
and worse still..it's individual work. haiz..

going out with dear in the evening for dinner..
hehz.. there im complaining of the things to do.. here im going out..
wahaha!! =)

//posted by ivy @ 14:19//

back from cell..
a long day today.. out from 11 till now.

i got a question.
how do you determine if a person is pissed/stubborn/frustrated while both of you are discussing some stuffs?

when the person raised his/her voice?
when he/she simply refuses to consider any of wad you have said?
when he/she ignores you?

this is interesting.
i shall continue to observe such things.

oh yeah.. if you've disliked someone in the past very much.. and somehow this person shows up in your life again cos he/she is your fren's fren..
will the negative feeling go away? or will it still linger around, waiting for its chance to unleash its power?

*ponders.

//posted by ivy @ 00:25//