*the love and grace of God in my life..*

Saturday, July 28, 2007

been a long while since i last typed something in here
it has been a lazy but rather tiring month
i'm just going through the weeks in this semester and hoping (half-heartedly) for it to end soon
i'm really tired and as much as i want to take a long, long break, it's pretty pointless
i know i'll still end up checking emails and after the break, there'll be backlog which i hate having
3 more weeks with both my classes; i think i'm going to miss my second class quite a bit
bought them waffles after class yesterday for their effort in dressing up and the full attendance in class
i'm really amazed at seeing 23 heads in the room; it was never the case.

the few of us have been attempting to make ourselves healthier and relieving stress by heading for a short run about twice a week after lessons ended
in fact, after the campus relay that we took part in, we went for mizuno wave run last weekend as well
some ran 10km while most of us just wanted to have a leisure run of 5km in the early morning
it was a good time; cooling and relaxing.

elena, jane and i had also signed up for great eastern 10km run in october, as well as standard chartered 10km run in dec.
it's going to be an enjoyable time!
great eastern women 10km 2007 - race no. 6298
standard chartered 10km 2007 - race no. 16571

the rest of them are either going for sheares bridge run or real run
i think we're giving them a miss.

on thursday, i submitted an application for something
no one knows about it yet except raymond, my very trusted and respected colleague
no, i'm not job-hopping (yet).

//posted by ivy @ 16:21//

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

i took off-in-lieu today
stayed at home to do my grading, checking emails etc.
went to meet reginald for dinner before we went for cell
i didn't feel comfortable about the whole itinerary and was filled with annoyance on the way back
i realised this is not the first time already and i do have a limit as to the time i spent travelling to and fro for an event, especially when it's recurring weekly

talked to baby about it
and he was right; i need to talk to my cell leader(s) about how i felt
but i ain't comfortable with one of them and it has been like that since 2 years ago
there was never any bad blood but there just isn't the need to converse or cross each other's path, and thus it has stayed the same ever since
how do i start, i ended up asking myself
and i've absolutely no idea to that

on the other hand, i'm also pretty upset about several things like the "collectivist" behaviours of a couple
i realised there isn't much between us and i'm not sure if that's a problem or we're just overly independent.
argh.
why am i the only one feeling such?

time to get to rest
i've been having a lot of things on my mind lately, and the only (thing) who knows about it as well is..
the very black screen you're reading.

//posted by ivy @ 23:34//

Sunday, July 08, 2007

ivy's personal plan for her work:
i'll continue with the co-mc role till end august when the module ends and i finish up the BOE report with raymond, plus i'll pass whatever knowledge i've to the next person (doing UT etc etc); after which i'll be terribly busy with poly forum since the actual forum is in mid sept
the new semester will begin in mid-sept and i'm hoping that i'll just be a normal academic staff, with no other duties
i'll want to consider taking up service-learning again so i'll go ask my boss and once it's cleared, i can start planning for a trip for next year february.

just a mental note of what is to come and to help me be able to see a bigger picture of what i aim to do; i was looking back at the past two (almost there) years and i realised i've been truly blessed in terms of the abundant opportunities given to me because of my age, energy and strengths

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as my friends around me tie the knot, there're so many things that cross my mind
- wedding can be a very stressful/frustrating process when one party is more ready than the other; very often the female is the more ready one
- wedding matters more to the female, than the male
- wedding preparation process is best enjoyed when it stretches over a considerable period of time; allowing the couple to assimilate and not rush through the process with tension and stress in the air
- recommended wedding preparation process seems to take around 3 years (saving up together, proposal, checking out housing, waiting for house, marriage preparation course, wedding preparation, renovation of house etc)
- many couples have also mentioned about wanting a few years of private time before thinking of a baby but things just didn't work out: in-laws pressure of having one, the age of the female doesn't allow much more postponing, medical checks revealed symptoms of the difficulty of conceiving etc

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sharon who got married yesterday told me this a couple of days back:
"Ivy, you're so blessed. Many girls end up being together with partners who aren't sure of what they want and after many years, everything just fell apart because marriage was never in their mind."

i guess she's right.

//posted by ivy @ 21:18//

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

met wah long (my ex-module chair) for dinner at city hall earlier on for our monthly dinner session
it was an enjoyable time together; he was sharing about his shanghai trip and it's so tempting to go!
it was a good time of catching up on both our ends, and yep, just enjoying the food and chat together
i miss having him as my colleague, though i think as friends, we are better off
at least, i know he's much happier now.

got the much coveted card yesterday late afternoon
it was a panicky session but i thank God for everything. =)

sat is sharon's wedding
so amazing; i (and many of us) never would have thought she would be the first one to settle down
knew her back in JC time and she was one of the best buddies i had in those days; i won't forget the support she gave me through the times of difficulties with my studies, how she lent a shoulder and encouraged me when i fell for her god-brother and he broke up with his then-girlfiend (those were the days!)..
but yea, we have all grown up now, and i can't wait to give her my blessings on sat!

//posted by ivy @ 00:21//