*the love and grace of God in my life..*

Wednesday, June 30, 2004

had dinner at peninsula food court yday evening.
been quite long since i last went. the entire table ordered from the same stall! haha.
there were...*count*.. 7 of us includin michelle who joined us for dinner
four of us ordered kuey chap together. big portion and cheap too. 3.50 per person. i dun find that price anymore!

prayer meeting was alright.
first time at 7.14 prayer. and first time in couple of years i hear rev. kuan's voice.
he's still chaplining st. marg's.
when he heard i was from st. marg's, he threw his fist into the air and shouted 'st. margaret's!' the way a cheerleader would do it!

some of them headed for esplanade..
rest of us went raffles city burger king for a bite
and while it was getting quite late, the lights went off.
for a few seconds, we really thought that was burger king's way of telling us that they are closing for the day.
then it struck us! blackout. =/

and yeah, the rest is predictable
handphones start ringing..and while the few of us were standing outside city hall mrt, i realised that we were all holding our phones! haha.
dad says jp all dark.
got me a bit scared.
went back with px and tracy anyway.
and light actually was restored ten mins before we reached jp!
how wonderful right?
both of us din have to grope home in the dark, climb the stairs to 7th floor and poked the keys into the wrong holes!

this morn had a meeting with the Director.
everyone was pretty fidgety while waiting for her.
hmmm, it was okie la. i prepared something to share juz in case but it had to be used anyway.
she asked the same qn i thought she might.
i am smart!

alright alright.
tonight is a free night
tmr night lders' training.
fri - i dunno where to go yet.

i have a farewell lunch tmr.
sobz.
the day i have been waiting for finally arrive but of cos, i do feel a bit 'bu she de' lah.
i have so gotten used to waking up at 7.15 in the morning and taking the train that leaves the station at 8.21am and brings me to my workplace at 8.59 - 9.01am.
yes. it's THAT accurate.
without fail.

right after attachment ends, im having my fyp lit reviews and stuffs.
a long yr ahead.
my supervisor is back with some work.
and i have to do handover tmr too.
better start preparing.

and hmmm, i realised i have gotten used to typing on the laptop's keypad during these 8 weeks. but i dun think i can handle dear's lappy still. different feel, different size.
and tsk tsk, i sound like zhong when he used to explain drumsticks to me.
different sticks have diff lengths, diff feel..diff sound.

out of point. i know.

//posted by ivy @ 16:23//

Tuesday, June 29, 2004

had a short lunch juz now and spend the other half hour thinking about things certain ppl have said. the ppl whom i talked to yday and crossed my mind for half a day.
and i wonder..

what is it that makes me spend so much time pondering over certain issues in the y/l when just two days ago, i remembered being pessimistic and irritated by the slight mention of the y/l? so many times, i told myself to forget it and do my own job..but each time, something will happen to make me take back my words and pray hard again. it happened again yday.
and i seriously dun wan to see y/l fall. crumble..and gone.

no way.
must stand strong..
even if there's juz one, two or three of us who want to see things happen..there is more than sufficient!

dun understand the above?
you dun have to. it's an entry to remind myself to fix my eyes on something else bigger, to stand firm and of cos, to love.
it's not an easy path i guess.. (understatement) but if no one bothers, then it's a big prob.

meeting the gals (celine, peixuan, wanling, tracy, cindy, candice) for dinner before prayer meeting.
and i hate to admit it, but im so eager to see them
each of them really made my day lately as i spent more time with them.
and yes, it's you if you're reading it! =)

some things i wanna do this week.
- a mini chat with arlene. (oopsie gal, delayed it last week but stay smiley okie?)
- a little chat with lilian.
- write some letters and cards to some people (i've procrastinated since like weeks ago)

jumping order again.
im meeting the Director tmr.
scary. she wans a chat with all interns for an hour tmr.

3 more days.
gonna pass real fast
i haven think of what to do for my colleagues yet!

//posted by ivy @ 14:01//

Monday, June 28, 2004

a long day out yday.

service in the morning.
had youth. si'er led worship. tina led us to a time of prayer.
den the girls stayed back for some drumming lessons.
headed to imm to shop for my oven. saw my tuition kid. went to walk ard but din get it yet. will go carrefour and look for more. had dinner at the foodcourt. den celine and cindy left. rest of us went to jp mos burger for milk shake.
and finally, had a chat with dear before going home.

been quite long since i talked to him.
and the time passes rather fast.
time to go home.
i slacked ard at home and finally went to bed at 1am.

this morning woke up feeling so tired.
but the thought of my last week of attachment made me popped up and washed up promptly.
pretty tight schedule this week as compared to the last.
tues night: prayer meeting at sac
wed night: tuition
thurs night: lder's training at adelphi
fri night: out with dear
sat: music prac

den the next week is gonna spend on writing my attachment report.
2000 words.
urgh.
i dun like writing reports..lost the smoking skills liao!

//posted by ivy @ 10:09//

Saturday, June 26, 2004

it's a quiet sat. im home catching up on my sleep
juz had dumpling and zhu chang fen as tea break
psychoed my mum to cook curry for dinner tonight.
and my dad popped by and said 'cook more. we can have curry noodles or curry bread tmr morn'
how nice. i love curry.

had a nice ending to my weekend.
at 3 plus yday, i had the sudden urge to meet tracy. wanna know how she is and stuffs lidat.
asked her out for coffee but instead, she said to have dinner together.
den after a while, i msged celine to come along as well.
last min tracy couldn't make it.
so celine and i decided not to eat at the place she worked in.

walked to swee lee and took a look at the new place
she played ard with the percussion while i looked at sticks
den off we went to magic wok restaurant
wasn't very packed so we asked for a corner seat
ended up right next to the kitchen but quiet thou.
ordered good food and the rest, u can read from celine's blog.
basically, i could feel my stomach exploding the moment we came out of there.
din feel like going home yet so went to sit ard at raffles hotel till we got chased out by security guard! wahaha.
and then i made my lonely journey home.

someone freaked me out on the train.
there were a couple beside me and oppsite me.
and a queer looking guy who sat next to the couple opposite me.
figured he's an army guy. wearing new balance shoes, head slightly bald.
and all the way from city hall to jurong east, where he alighted,
he had on a look on his face which scares you.
he glanced deeply at the couple beside me and beside him with such distaste that i thought he was going to punch the guys any moment
he rolled his eyes and twitched his mouth everytime the couple held hands or shared intimate moments like a small chat and a gd night peck.
he looked down at the girl beside him and stared long and hard at her cleavage
any idiot can tell.
and while at that, he bit his lips and made funny motions with his fingers at his thigh.
apparently, this was noticed by the girl's bf and they promptly switched place
his gaze followed intently to their new seats
and i thought i heard him swear
with no one beside him, his eyes were fixed on the couple beside me.
and i pretended to be asleep.

a lesson learnt.
guys, always keep a lookout for your gf
girls, dress appropriately

//posted by ivy @ 16:59//

Friday, June 25, 2004

back from lunch. it was chicken rice at rocher centre.
cheap and nice. yum~

read dear's blog.
and i can't help feeling that i missed out so much stuffs this hols cos of attachment.
and it scares me.
cos this is what is going to happen when i enter working force a yr later.
things like church camp, youth camp, spending time with youths and other events.
and i really dun wan that.
now i know why izzit that those who transit to working life find it so hard to cope and juggle. find it hard to commit to ministries as well. it's juz like army, juz that working life is prob a lifetime thingy
i'll prob face the same thing. soon.
scarriee.

on a lighter note..
went OG to shop after lunch.
i bought a balance scale. for both my mum and my baking craze
one more week.. and you'll catch me smelling like a pastry shop! wahahaz.

going on shopping for a handheld mixer and oven pretty soon.
carrefour. if not, then i'll get it at OG.
saw some juz now. pretty affordable.

kinda dry spiritually lately.
up and down, like a bob.

fill me with such love and passion that i've nv experienced before, i pray

//posted by ivy @ 13:50//

zhong is recovering..i think.
at least his fever was gone.
dropped by for an hour or so last night and i realised how much i miss him.
geez.

today's a boring day at work. mayb cos it's fri and everyone is looking forward to it but not me. i still gotta come back tmr. my last sat.
someone in the dept asked me yday if i'll miss IE after my internship
i stared at her for pretty long before saying i dun think so.
hehz.
after all, it's only 2 months.
and it's not as if i have fellows interns here whom i see everyday so nah.. wun miss.

but one thing i'll miss will prob be the morning sun i get to see every day.
im quite certain that i wun have the discipline to wake up early after internship ends.

alright. enuff of work
done up my cell roster. at work yday! wahahaz.
i was taking a break mah.
now, need to source for materials for sharing.
i allocated a session each to zhong, si'er and denny! =)
think i need to borrow zhong's bible study book.

blog in the afternoon again.
ta-ta

//posted by ivy @ 09:56//

Thursday, June 24, 2004

my dear bf is sick.
i dunno whether to drop by his place later.
what if i get sick later?
haha. but this is usually the case. only he can pass his sickness to me. i nv seemed to be able to pass mine to him.
ivy has a weak immune system, must be.

keying in some employment data now for a database.

think i'll juz pop by later la.
must see how dear is.

get well soon!

//posted by ivy @ 14:17//

my stomach is growling now.
and it's another 2 hrs to lunch.
oh no~

slept rather well last night and i woke up feeling good and refreshed
had a short chat with denny last night regarding certain matters.
and im glad we shared the same conviction.
shall juz pray abt it. =)

//posted by ivy @ 10:33//

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

both my supervisor and i were doing our work intently when i felt her staring at me.
lifted my head, only to be asked "hey, when is ur last day again?"
2nd july. next fri.
she let out a gasp and gave me a dun-bluff look.
i nodded my head to indicate that i was not.

and she went rambling like a nutcase!
"oh no oh no. still so many things to do. need you ard to help. how? jialat, next month quite bz. aiyo..
these are what i managed to catch amidst her rambling.

i jokingly said "how abt extending my attachment then?"
and then half a second later, i laughed and said "better not"
she smiled and after a while "yah, better not. if not, bintan is out of mind, out of sight!"
haha. she can actually read my mind!

and then still five mins later, she said "let's go feast on 1st july yah"
i nodded. and grinned.
and she said "yes yes. i know. we both love to eat!"

//posted by ivy @ 17:59//

today is one of the best day at work.
supervisor was called to chair interviews this morn and there were 6 candidates so she took a total of 4 hrs!
by the time she finished, i had oredi finished my lunch. (1pm)

then i went down to stamford house to pay up for my bintan resort rooms.
a bit scary walking into stamford house. it's dead quiet cos it's sort of high-class with shops like spas and stuffs in there.
the wooden floor was sparkling shiny and clean.
every step i take seem so loud! (i was in heels)
they explained a little to me, timings and stuffs.
paid up and left with an extra bright pink envelope containing my resort room document

came back office at 1.45pm.
supervisor not back yet. and i sat down printing my ferry confirmation letter. no ferry tics cos i booked online =/ i want tics so that i can keep! boo.
now everything is in my pink envelope and it is what we need to survive in bintan!

it's 3pm now.
supervisor going off for a short meeting in a few mins time.
and im left on my own again.
time is passing quite fast.
3 more hrs for today.

as my mum and i predicted, my tuition gal postponed her tuition. she says something like going somewhere and can't get back on time.
so tonight is a free night after all.

with 8 more days to end of PA, i have this sudden surge of energy to finish up everything on my table and do it well.
in fact, i went searching all over my supervisor's table this morn to retrieve back some documents to make amendments!
how in the world has ivy become so conscientious in her work?

well well..
answer lies in.. the bintan excitement is thrilling me.
and the fact that my bf will be back in local soil in less than 3 hours!

//posted by ivy @ 14:49//

Tuesday, June 22, 2004

finished my second flowchart at 5pm and since only left an hr, not possible to start another one so i fiddled with visio even more.
i tried to do my progress chart using visio and i did it!
hehz.. printed it out somemore.
and it's currently on the first page of my drums file! =)

watched the half hour serial on navy juz now.
for the next few weeks, they are featuring on ndu. today juz started and i practically glued myself to the screen.
dear is right.. the shorts are really sexy shorts.

these few weeks, i have read so many blogs till i know roughly what divers do inside.
the training and stuffs.
if not for zhong going into ndu (of all units), you wun ever catch me being interested in army stuffs (or navy more like it)
well, knowing these wld prob help in a way that im mentally prepared of what his training is like..and emotionally prepared too.

felt quite guilty over the follow-up with tracy.
but overall, i still thank God for the openness when she was sharing some stuffs.
she really reminds me of myself a few years back. hehz.

alright. nothing much today.
there's tuition tmr evening. and dear will be back too!
i miss him.

//posted by ivy @ 21:31//

woohoo~
a computer idiot like me managed to complete a flowchart! but it took me 4 hrs! geez.

supervisor passed me the visio cd this morning, installed and tried fiddling with it for a while.
and juz a min ago, the printer churned out my half day of hard work!
* beams satisfactorily.

one flowchart done.
hmmmm, a handful more to go.
expect it'll take me till the end of the week. =)

//posted by ivy @ 15:48//

it's lunch time. for me.
but i'll finish blogging before i go.

had a short talk with my dear gal over drumming last night and im so glad she decided to give it a try.
gal, u can do it! im sure of that!
den had fyp discussion via 3 way conference for an hour or so.
after attachment ends, it's a hectic 10 months ahead.
other than the usual seminar and tut and exams, church stuffs and personal time, fyp is gonna take up most of my free time.
but as i look at it, i shld be coping fine.
with dear enlisting, i wun get to spend as much time with him.
so yep, quite sure that i should be able to cope.

i started doing my drumming progression chart for second half 2004 last night.
it must be a challenge for me but yet, realistic.
otherwise, it'll defeat the purpose.

alright.
lunch.
im hungriieeeeeee..~~

//posted by ivy @ 12:23//

Monday, June 21, 2004

i feel like crying. boohoo~
juz read a girl's blog whose bf's in ndu 21st batch.

there was an entry where she posted her bf's last smses to her before he enlists.
and when i read that, i could only imagine what a cry-baby ivy is gonna be on 18th aug.
boohoo~

time to leave.
tata

//posted by ivy @ 18:11//

im losing it.
argh.

i haven been as consistent as i told myself to be in practising my rudiments and my single strokes
when i did for a while yday, it suddenly felt so good.

alright.
here's a new declared resolution for second half 2004.
~ prac my single strokes and other rudiments as least 15 mins a day, for at least 4 times a week.

one more hr to lunch.
and u can see. im slacking.

//posted by ivy @ 11:28//

mon. at work. boring. tired.
im blogging incoherently. oh no.

i dun feel good today.
emotionally.
hmmm, i hope i din make wanling angry yday by the 'bury' joke.
*sigh.
anyway, we din get our durian feast as planned.
we got ice-cream instead. and it wasn't really that nice. dumb dumb service crew guy din put enuff fudge.

back-tracked.
service was short. ended at 11am.
had lunch den sent the rest off.
so sad, only left like 9 of us back at german centre. took some pics.
den reg, cindy and clara went off.
left wanling, rosy, celine, tracy, weiq and myself.
pulled out the guitar and songbook. played songs after songs.
everyone had a turn on the drums.
and someone learnt super fast!
shall keep the identity in suspense.
woohoo~ but i guess i'll spill it out to zhong one day man.

first time keeping the drumset by myself.
grrr.. the room so hot!
plus the ultra hot weather. killer man.

after dinner, spent some time with tracy on the way back home and did some shopping.
glad that she shared certain things.
and she actually said "i wanna tell you quite some time liao but like u always busy"
make me feel so bad.
for a moment, i asked myself whether i've neglected her.
i hope not.

find it so hard to maintain a strong r/s with diff grps of ppl at the same time.
if i do spend more time with one grp, i'll feel myself neglecting some others.
argh. bad bad.
must try to balance out my time and of cos, most time will go to my 'disciples' next time and tertiary cell.

this entry is one of the worst.
events jumping everywhere.
my train of thots kept getting distracted.
by some factors like dear, cell, work and one dear gal. =/

//posted by ivy @ 09:43//

Sunday, June 20, 2004

a silly quiz from my fren's friendster.
but well, im bored now so here goes...

Name Four Things You Are Thinking About Now :
1. dearie
2. cell's roster
3. sleep
4. tmr's work

Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought :
1. ice-lemon tea at coffeeshop
2. soyabean drink at liberty
3. mac's orange-choc float
4. today's lunch

Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink :
1. pokka green tea
2. ice milo
3. jiajia herbal tea
4. water

Last Time You Said 'I Love You' and to who?
vey recently. to my bf & God.

Last Time You Cried ?
last sun.

What's In Your CD Player ?
dun own one.

What Color Socks Are You Wearing ?
do ppl wear socks with when they're in heels?? dohz.

What's Under Your Bed ?
space. air. darkness.

What Time Did You Wake Up Today?
8am cos service starts at 9.30am.

Current Hairstyle?
long. half-black, half-coloured.

Current Clothes ?
sajc t-shirt and batik shorts

Current Desktop Picture ?
two cute little bears.

Current Worry ?
dear's enlistment into ndu.

Current Hate ?
i dun hate. i dislike.

Favorite Physical Feature Of The Opposite Sex?
gotta depend who the opposite sex is.

Last CD You Bought ?
did i mention that i dun even own a cd-player?

Favorite Place To Be ?
someone's arm. blue-star place. beach at night.

Least Favorite Place?
exam hall.

If You Could Play An Instrument ?
drums. and play it realy well.

if yes, have u ever been go on stage?
of cos. needless to ask.

Favorite Color(s)?
starts with P, ends with K. got it?

Do You Believe In An Afterlife ?
nope. of cos not.

Current Favorite Word/Saying ?
dun think i have.

One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could be?
no one. i wanna be myself still.

Favorite Day ?
sun!

Where Would You Like To Go ?
bintan. france. anywhere!

How Many Kids Do You Want ?
more than one, less than three. u do the maths.

Favorite Car?
family car. honda.

//posted by ivy @ 21:53//

Saturday, June 19, 2004

finally managed to spend some time with dear today.
it's been more than a week.. and he's leaving to port dickson tmr till wed night.
thou it's a mere 4 hours but im glad to see him.
so glad in fact.
had dinner at jp - long time since we last ate there.
shopped ard for stuffs.. and of cos, an hour at fave hunt-out. =)

i managed to psycho my mum to get an oven.
hehz. she asked me to check it out and let her know..
yippie, that means i can start baking stuffs like mad.
*itching to do so.

next week gonna pass quite slowly.
work 6 days. and sat night a bbq at sentosa.
i dunno if i shld go straight home after bbq or shld i stay overnight and go for svc the next day. the latter wld prob means i'll be tired and there's youth that sun too.
geee, most likely leave after bbq.
but ulu man. i hate leaving sentosa all alone.

next quarter's roster is out.
playing alt weeks.
*mixed feelings.
but im quite sure i'll grow to be more independent in song arrangements and setting up.
yep. a good thing of cos.
bad thing: i'll prob develop some muscles from shifting drumsets so often! haha.

time to sleep.
looking forward for tmr.
nitez

//posted by ivy @ 23:11//

Friday, June 18, 2004

im proud of my notes.
yeah, notes from sch - lect notes, tut sheets etc.
and esp my econs notes from JC
i took effort in maintaining them so much so that ppl think i din study for a levels cos they looked so new after prelims and a levels

den shuhei borrowed it for his a levels year.
came back, still look hmmm fine la.
now janice is borrowing it.
hopefully, they are still in good condition for me to keep after that.

and i juz lent shuhei my acctg notes last week as well.
my mum must be thinking im mad
i've been retrieving the tall chair from my storeroom to climb to the top shelves and searched thru the piles.
gonna do it again tonight for janice.

ta-ta
off for lunch and when im back, it's another 3 hrs before my supervisor leaves to me freedom!
wooohoooo~~

my supervisor's gd fren came to our cubicle and my supervisor was drinking honey. she asked if her fren wan and adds on to say that the bottle of honey quite ex. some wild honey thingy..$30 plus.
and the fren loudly exclaimed.
"keep your own bees la dear."

haha.
and i burst out laughing there and then.

//posted by ivy @ 12:09//

i've been staring hard at the impossible task given to me on wed.
yday i spent half the time staring at my screen.
and till now, all i did was to make the slides more presentable.

today my dept having walking marathon at macritchie (i dunno how to spell)
leaving at 4.30pm.
woohoo~
i can spend the remaining 1.5 hrs reading up on my fyp stuffs which is needed for my fyp meeting tonight
den tmr morn heading down to sch to meet tutor

realised i will not be seeing dear for quite long.
sun after svc, he's heading straight down to port dickson till next wed.
so i guess i'll see him next thurs or fri bah.
so long... *whines*
he says he has something for me but refused to tell me what it is.
hmmm, nvm. i like surprises!

bintan ferry tics booked.
now waiting for room confirmation.
hehez.
one more month..one more month..
i decided. im gonna bring both digi cam and normal cam. (not like i have)
mich/liting darling gals... can you read my mind?
i must do the puss-in-the-boot and hat look from shrek!

wahahaz.
have a great weekend!

//posted by ivy @ 10:26//

Thursday, June 17, 2004

on a normal day, such timing would be the one i typed my second entry of the day.
but i actually forgot to blog this morn! haha. was reading others' but the thought of updating my blog nv crossed my mind.

morning was spent figuring out what kinda presentation i wanna do for my supervisor. it's for her to present to other Directors so die die oso must do a good job.
im only 1/4 way thru. have 13 slides now but content not very detailed.

had a nice time having dinner with the 3 gals last night - celine, wanling & hmmm, rosy d/o nathan!
haha. that's by far the funniest nickname those gals have come up with.
and all of a sudden, 'tie jin gang' dun seem to be funny anymore. =)
had a good laugh over the nathan and lky joke. and of cos the 'peek-a-boo'
HAHAZ!
we were still talking abt it when we board the train to go home.

bintan activities are done up.
as long as dear has no objections, then i can proceed booking.
woohoo~ the thot of going bintan has been thrilling me the past 3 days!

//posted by ivy @ 14:09//

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

my ntu supervisor called.
she says she will drop by later at 4.30pm.
hmmm, that gives me like half an hour to slack.
good.
mayb even longer since she quite long-winded.
called me the other day and we chatted quite long.

but first, i must survive now.
this is bad.
supervisor juz gave me two files. some overseas employment thingy.
i read them
and im supposed to add-on to the current employment manual and create a powerpt presentation for her whenever she needs to explain such employment stuffs to other directors.
it's tough.
whenever she explains, it's super vague.
and she speaks like a bullet train cos she has to rush her work.
and leave me here like an idiot trying to figure out and understand.
but barely managed to do so thus far.

2.5 hrs more to go.
i've got to puff up something, or rather, smoke out something.
sigh.

//posted by ivy @ 15:22//

si'er is the best.
he called me 5 mins ago and i thot he had impt things to ask or mayb even abt upcoming P&P.
guess what?
he called to ask me zhong's home number! O_o!!!

i realized i can't book the ferry tics yet.
at least not until i confirm the activities cos i can't decide what time i wanna leave bintan. and so, can't book ferry.
urgh.. later then think.
shall give sharon a call to find out more.

i had a short chat with arlene last night.
the first time in i dunno how many months i actually shared with someone else what's going thru my mind.
except for zhong of cos.
and i am glad i was willing to tell her; and her willing to listen to everything.
and she reminded me of something we learnt in sajc
mr wee's fave hymn which goes 'i don't know about tomorrow...'

yep, i really dunno what's gonna happen tmr..
what's gonna happen when sch starts
what's gonna happen when dear enlists..
but her words struck me deep.
"it's really going to be living by faith each passing day and trusting in the provision of God"

thank God for arlene.
thanks sis!

//posted by ivy @ 10:00//

Tuesday, June 15, 2004

i'm bored.
i've been juz here clicking and clicking away on my laptop since 9am this morn.
im stuck at my work but she has no time to teach me
so i spent the hours checking out and planning my bintan trip.
hehz.
should be booking the ferry tics and rooms soon.
as soon as dear confirms the dates with me.

supervisor juz came back..but i think she's going off again.
anyway, had a really cheap lunch
$2 for a plate of huge roasted chicken with cabbage soup
i almost couldn't finish.
den went to the nearby confectionery to buy cakes and puffs.
hehz.. i juz feel like eating and eating.

//posted by ivy @ 15:19//

yesterday was a delightful day!
met up with sharon after work, only to receive a very shocking piece of news. good news thou.
arlene! u din tell me..tsk tsk. sharon asked whether u have told me..
and then, she was telling me abt her bintan trip with liduan and stella..
i got so envious.. and so i popped the critical qn.
what's the cost.

woohoo~ affordable.
and so .. so....
i shall head down to bintan for 2 days and 1 night in july. after attachment, before school starts.
was checking out bintan and the resort and all the activities juz now.
and im really excited!
hehez.

and yeah, i almost couldn't get to sleep last night.
im so excited.. wheeeeee~~~~
dear better not dash my hope thou.
or i will bawl like a baby!

will check out more during lunch time.
and calculate the cost for the activities.
and cos of that, the 3 weeks more of attachment is gonna pass really really soon..
im so sure of that!

//posted by ivy @ 10:30//

Monday, June 14, 2004

something to look forward to at the end of a dreadful mon at work..
coffee with sharon at jp!

been long since i met her and talked.
i miss her to a certain extent. =)
but she'll nv see this..hehz.
cos she stopped blogging.
hmmm, i shld influence her again tonight.
alright. two more hrs.

it's going to pass real fast.

//posted by ivy @ 15:54//

whenever im bored of what im doin in office, the first place i go is www.blogger.com! haha.
and here im again

anyway, i remb something i saw on sat which was really funny.
we were outside a hamster shop..and right in front of me, i saw a hamster yawn and go to sleep.
it was stretching itself vertically on one of the right angle of the cage.
as thou it was doin push-up..but vertically.
it gave a big yawn and promptly went to sleep.
yeah, in that position. i was wondering how long it can sustain standing on its hind legs and using the front legs to support itself from sliding down.
anyway, soon after, another notti hamster came along to look for food.
it poked and pushed.. and the sleeping hamster got pushed down to half its original standing position..
but.. it's still asleep!

fascinated me so much.
they are really flexible and so soft.. argh!
i wan hamsters!
but my mum wun allow..boo~

'shi zhi lu kou' has been put on hold..by me.
i have very much wanted to cancel it but not after what i heard from cindy yday afternoon.
she said "hey, so how izzit going ah? i went ard inviting my frens leh."

well, i figured that even if there is only gonna be one person going ard inviting frens, im still goin to put in effort in planning it.
worst come to worst, another games day for youth! haha.. nah, that's juz my idea. wild idea.
okie.. so planning for 'shi zhi lu kou' is gonna start soon.
wanna help? let me know.
u'll be appreciated. greatly.

after my last 3 weeks of attachment is over, i wanna go several places/do certain things.
1. hike bukit timah hill
2. dim sum breakfast at chinatown
3. breakfast at either changi village or tiong bahru or bukit timah
4. dinner buffet at merchant court
5. wild wild wet or sentosa (hopefully)

yep yep. i shall see how many of the five will come to pass.
and i got the feeling i'll have more to add as time goes by.

//posted by ivy @ 11:29//

Sunday, June 13, 2004

woke up at 7.20am today, feeling real tired but yet, excited.
washed up, had a long breakfast cos my mum was telling me some stuff abt baking pizza
went down german centre, tina not there yet. phew
ran thru the songs but lotsa mistakes still and i feel insecure for a moment.
a short session of prayer and praise & worship started.
"juz play the praise from your heart", i told myself
and so tina started.
okie la, went quite smoothly except for a little miss here and there.

session was good.
and when i prayed for tracy and candice, tears juz flowed.
i feel weird, tearing when im praying for them and when i looked up, they were in tears too.
ended, had lunch with tp girls.
and we decided to treat ourselves to durians next sun after church when the rest are heading down to port dickson!
woohoo~
gals' day out to..geylang!

had my belated bday prezzie from arlene and gang
a pink and purple shawl.. nice shade
got something from sabby yday as well. =)

came home, rested
watched the repeat of 'bend it like beckham'
on the phone with dear for an hour or so
and im headin to bed soon.
kinda sleepy thou i took a nap

i feel glad.
cos dear said i played okie, good, above-avg today
well at least.. i did fine.
but.. im still soft.
geez.

good nitez
have a blessed week.

//posted by ivy @ 23:06//

Saturday, June 12, 2004

Past by the pantry to get drinks juz now and an article on the notice-board caught my attention.
It wrote “Are Men really from Mars?” – from the book, Men are from Mars; Women from Venus.

Out of curiosity, I stood there and read. Pretty long article.
And the gist of it says.. of cos, men and women are totally different emotionally.
"Men do not need as much reassurance as women do. You dun have to reassure a guy, but for a gal, she is more emotional and thus, needs reassurance once in a while. No matter how much (guys out there) you think is redundant and uncalled for, pamper your gal with some sweet and loving words now and then. U’ll be surprise how much happier she will be."

and another section talks about what happens when men are sad and down.
"Men usually do not like to share much. They wanna be left alone when feeling down. They want time to think through and yes, you may be the closest person to him, but you’ll be surprise that he wun wanna share with you at that moment of time. So gals, give ur guys some space and time.. and before long, he’ll be back into your arms and telling you what happened."

stood there for 10 mins I guess..
reading and wondering how come these words sound so familiar.
As though I have seen it somewhere else..and I think I know where.
From a book I have, titled “How to know if you’re really in love?”

well well.. 40 more mins to knock-off
then im home for lunch and out again for music prac.

//posted by ivy @ 12:13//

*yawnz.
first time in 5 weeks of work that i really din wanna wake up this morning when my hp beeped consistently for a total of 3 mins. and another 2 mins after the 'snooze' button was pressed.

here im now in the office.
supervisor and two other colleagues chatting away a meter from me.
and someone out of the blue commented "what a torture it is to work on a sat!"
woohoo~ i second that!

anyway, im not confident of the songs this afternoon but shall try my best.
hehz. and have no regret. O_o!
finally, i get to try out my Zildjian Jazz stic and zhong's iron cobra! hehz.

was reading blogs juz now cos im really tired and din feel like doing the policy changes im supposed to do.
and arlene..
i sorta missed cell too. it's been a month.
coming wed there is cell.. but know what? i dunno what to do. haha.

//posted by ivy @ 09:19//

Tuesday, June 08, 2004

I	Intelligent
V	Virtuous
Y	Yum

Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com

well, im bored.
haha. im intelligent, virtuous and yum?
what does that mean man? im nice to eat?
no way.

let's try zhong's.
and he's..

Z	Zany
H	Handsome
O	Overwhelming
N	Nice
G	Gentle
F	Fine
A	Awesome

wahaha. what's zany anyway?

//posted by ivy @ 23:04//

blogger counted for me
i have officially posted 500 entries
this is the 501st entry.
woah.. in a span of 2 years.
seems juz few months back i started blogging anyway. and i realised my class gals are blogging! haha.
currently, we have diana yao, liting, joanne, mich, peiting.
wonder if huimin is joining in the gang? haha.

hmmm, my supervisor is not pregnant.
she's juz having cramps.
i overheard her telling one of the collegues "dunno leh, hopefully soon lor. tried quite long liao leh. i dun wan to be a high-aged mother!"
haha.

yep, today passed really slowly. it's only lunch time now.
haiz.
i woke up this morning and my eyes hurt.
hmmmm.. must be last night.
took a cab home last night and the journey took 8 mins!
haha.. i timed eh! all the way green light and the cabby driver drove at 120 km/h!

alright. nothing to blog for now.
feel like eating lots of junk food.
ice-cream, crackers, chilli taipoca, cheezy stuffs..yum! haha
think i'll go buy junk food back to office. my pringles are running out.

//posted by ivy @ 11:57//

Monday, June 07, 2004

3 more hours before dinner at noochx! yippie.
been quite sometime since i last saw liting, joanne and huimin eh.
yep, and i haven ate at noochx since...ages ago.

boring day.
i got back my first draft of report from supervisor. it's supposed to be my proj for the attachment.
some red marks here and there..haha. looked at if they juz came back from a tutor or something.
now i gotta make some changes and for certain pages, changed everything.argh.

this week is a long long week.
im working on sat this week. after that is music prac.
den sun gotta wakey early.
haiz. can't sleep late this sat or sun.
but i seemed to be getting used to waking up at 7am thou.

my supervisor is either pregnant or having cramps
she has been holding a cushion to her tummy since morning. inside the cushion, there is a flask-like thingy..when she opened it juz now, smoke came out.
hmmm, plus she went for an appointment at KK Hospital last thurs..
hmmm? hmmmmmmm? mayb she is pregnant!
hehz.. cheap thrill.

alright-y..
im bored. and tired from typing the whole day.
3 more hours.. 3 more hours.. 3 more hours...*mumbles..

im beginning to feel a drop in energy for cell.
and to think, i was so excited over cell a few weeks back.
- mayb it's cos i dun seem to get response for certain matter no matter how i reminded verbally and sms-ly
- mayb it's cos i feel myself sucked into this vacuum of sadness and withdrawal when i looked at ppl in the cell
- mayb it's cos im working
- mayb it's cos i dun see the cell as a cell anymore. it seems to be juz a grp obliged to come together to sing songs, listen to me talk, some laughter and a little supper.

argh..i mustn't get myself sink deeper into this.
thou there's no prayer meeting this wed, i still decide not to have cell.
for a reason.
- for me to pray and get myself right again, in terms of leading a cell.
- for me to get a focus and vision of the cell for second half 2004.
- for me to have a clear view what i can do for cell w/o an asst ard.
- for me to plan my 3rd quarter roster more prayerfully and cell events as well.
- for me to get refreshed and not pass my lethargy to the rest of the lders and cell members.

alright.
i feel so much better now.
it's juz a blog.. but at least a place i can vent my feelings
and a place when i can look back in future and thank God how He has brought me thru.

the joy of the Lord is my strength.

//posted by ivy @ 15:09//

Wednesday, June 02, 2004

my 4th week of attachment.
was on the way the work with candice on mon and she told me she really din wanna go work that day. but on the other hand, i was bursting to go work. haha.
cos i figured this week is gonna pass real fast and i have something to look forward to.
my bubble burst.

i had the very intention to blog my thoughts and feelings juz an hr ago
but not anymore now
sometimes, those ugly thots and feelings come at the spur of moment and made you lose your mind.
i shan't be angry, disappointed or sad, i told myself.
neither am i going to be a demanding, possessive and self-centered gf.

but the fact is..
i still cried.
sometimes, i wished im a much stronger person, a less emotional girl.

3/4 of the day went by without me doin much constructive things.
tmr is back to work.
and nothing to look forward to anymore.
except mayb to go work tmr with puffy red eyes.
my supervisor isn't ard anyway. no one gonna look at me so intently i hope.

//posted by ivy @ 17:18//

Tuesday, June 01, 2004

my supervisor changed her mind.
she took leave from 4pm onwards today and thurs a full day leave. again
haha. but i got things to do oredi, helping someone else.
my table are piled up like mad now. shall clear it on thurs.

tmr no work.
this week seems to go super fast.
wheee...~~

alright. time to tidy up my desk a little and knock off before she comes scurrying back and ask me to do more work.
ta-ta

it's 6pm now.
=)

i miss my dear dear.. seems so long i last saw him.
and it's not even a week yet. =/

//posted by ivy @ 18:00//