*the love and grace of God in my life..*

Friday, June 27, 2003

weekend is approaching.. and i am going to have a fantastic time this weekend eh?! hehz..

yup, dear came over to my place yday to do bday pressie for his god-sis's sis.. and he had a chance to try my mum's zwee kuey and her chilli. wahahah.. mayb i shld dabao a jar for u eh?
after that, i went for tuition..and it's that stupid girl. yday's session was like chatting session. i spent only an hour teaching her and she was telling me all about her camp, her volley-ball training and etc etc.

going to bathe and head down to dear's place to watch a show. after that, meeting tina for dinner and of cuz, prayer meeting.
yup..long day ahead eh? hmm.. and i still got to do my 'core values' to submit to pastor.
arrggghhhh.. it completely slipped my mind ok.. haiz.

im praying hard that no verbal war will happen again. sometimes, some ppl juz dun understand others' concern for them and then, they start arguing and stuff.. haiz.

//posted by ivy @ 13:41//

Thursday, June 26, 2003

my major selection is as follows..
1. Human Resource Consulting
2. Banking & Finance
3. Marketing
4. Information Technology
5. Applied Economics
6. Actuarial Science

the decision of choosing major had been bugging me since sat till yday. but well, i made up my mind in the end. still gonna try for hr, and if it's not for me to be in there, i wun be of cuz. if it's meant for me to be in there, i'd be even if i din meet the minimum requirement! yup, i dunno. a sense of peace really came upon me as i clicked those choices into studentlink. and as i click enter, my heart went "God, im really leaving this into Your Hands. This is gonna affect my future and so, i am trusting You that You have the best in store for me."

went out with dear today to do a price list of the various instruments and stuffs he needa get for music min, and then off to cell. cell was fine today. had a time of games before the teachings.

a little tired ler.. i shall sleep early tonight, considering that i have a badminton session tmr afternoon. and mayb tuition in the evening.

//posted by ivy @ 00:28//

Saturday, June 21, 2003

it's one of the rare occasion im at home on a saturday. besides being sick, having exams (come to think of it, i was out even during exam times! hahz) and after a quarrel with my mum, im never at home on a saturday afternoon.

everyone in icq has disappeared cos most are at sentosa now. my class people half gone too.. after all, it's sat.
got my results early in the morning at 11 plus. i din bother to wake up early juz to check my grades. but i did fear a little as i click the button that says 'result'. flashed before my eyes and i was quite sad for a moment
a C in Organisational Behaviour means a slim chance of getting into HR next year. wad am i going to do if i dun get in that? most prob go into marketing. but haiz.. first choice is always the one u wanna get into.
and it made me think so much.. the fact that i so badly wanna get into my first choice. will i get it again this time round?
from p4 streaming to sec 2 selection of courses to sec 4 selection of JCs to selection of courses in JC to choosing NTU as first choice to getting into business as a first choice too.. i have all gotten it. my first choices. and it has never occurred to me how i would take it if i din get into any of the above. well, my life wun be the same as now. hahz.

i guess this is wad it means to trust in His plan for me. after all, He has brought me so far.. im sure i wun be left alone here.
HR or no HR.. life goes on. i still can excel in wadever major im placed in. yep..

supposedly going out with sharon but dun feel like now. im lazy to go out. so i guess i shall juz face the screen till tonight. haahz... my eyes!!! argh.. eyesight more like it.

//posted by ivy @ 15:28//

Friday, June 20, 2003

juz woke up.. *yawnz..
and the very first msg that i saw when i opened my eyes was "hey, what time is the result coming out?"...
*thanks ah.... grrr !!!

anyway, shan't bother abt my results now. think the earliest is this evening. waiting for my mum to cook lunch.. ooh!! i love the dishes today. it's sze-chuan soup, spicy brinjals and some veg (kai lan) i think. *yummy..
den after lunch, bathe.. and make my way to dear's place to watch last night's 9pm show which we missed.

i had such a fantastic day yday! though it was juz a few hours, but it's enough to make us tired but yet, enjoyable too.
went botanic garden. hurhur.. haven been there since J1. fed the fishes, turtles, swans and a pathetic duck which suffers from identity crisis! wahahaaz.. walked around and took lotsa pics. hehz.. [i can't wait to see the pics ehz..]
and i had a really really nice dinner. so 'chicky'.. hahz. went to eat 'ban zhi ji' at clementi. nice and filling. the chicken is so tender.. nice!

yup yup, yday shall make up for the fun and excitement i was going to have tmr. so at least, i dun feel that bad. hehz.
okie.. time to go.
lunch--bathe--out.

//posted by ivy @ 12:30//

Wednesday, June 18, 2003

Which [Finding Nemo] characters are you?

//posted by ivy @ 12:38//

Tuesday, June 17, 2003

im bored.
not that there is nothing to do..there is. (clearing up my books/notes and drawers)..but im lazy.

wun be going for xscension. oh well.. shan't raise it up. sianz. =(

//posted by ivy @ 14:03//

Monday, June 16, 2003

been 4 years ler.. but they are still as stubborn when it comes to church/temple issue.
conversation during dinner went like this..

dad : wanna go temple tonight?
me : no..
dad : why? you dun have anything on what..
me : hmm.. i dun feel like going. i wanna watch tv.
silence...
mum : temple dun go, church den u go lahz.
me : ...
mum : right? you've been going church right?
me : (softly) ya..
mum : temple and church same what. why u can go church, cannot go temple?
me : u believe in going temple and the same logic applies, i believe in going church
mum : big oredi lahz.. know what to talk back oredi lahz..
i hate this.. she only knows how to use this..
silence... ivy leaves the kitchen and avoids them.

sometimes, it irritates me so much. when they claim that temple = church. but when i say why dun u all come church..they will give a whole lot of excuses!
dun we have freedom of worship? why can't they juz let me attend church while they attend temple if they insist..
*frustrated.

esp when they always contradict themselves..
when it comes to such issue, they will say: "you're still not 21 hor. still under my control.. blah blah blah. implying im still young.
den when they wanna scold me for any other thing, they will say: "so big oredi. 20 yrs old liao still dunno how to think. ppl your age oredi ..blah blah blah..implying i shld be doing more than what im doing now.

you see?
how contradicting parents can get?!!
and it irritates me big time.

//posted by ivy @ 19:20//

staying at home finally.. after a few days of retreat and sun svc where im out from morning to night.
had such a fruitful week last week that im beginning to wonder why can't we have a retreat twice a year or something? during the two long vacations. it'll be so nice.. once a year seems so long.. haiz.

but well, of cuz, it requires all of us to be committed to the retreat and for pastor to prepare everything. for once, im appreciating the fact that all we do is to go with a ready and open heart, without the need to prepare anything except our hearts every morning. wad a nice feeling. leaders are humans after all, we get tired and drained as well. the retreat seemed the perfect chance for us to gel together and a personal time of growth and im so thankful for that.
yup yup.. if only it was a stay-in, wouldn't it be much better? hehz..

yday's service went on fine. pastor shared on something he prepared on the spot. (can't believe it still). u ask me prepare something like 5 mins before the sharing starts, i dun think i can even last for 10 mins! hahz.
that's what he means by 'being ready in season and out of season' eh?..

made quite a few mistakes yday. but well, wad's new? at least, im thankful that i din stop halfway in the song and lose the beat.. wahaha.. which is a rather usual scenario. -_-" hurhur..

youth was back at clara's house. sabby taught. cld understand better this time round. hahaz. yup, after dat, went over to dear's place for austin powers II.. (yeah baby yeah.) opsiee!!

had a nice dinnner.. hokkien mee, stingray and prata!!! whoo.. full full. *rubs tummy.

okie.. that's the fantastic week i had. nicest week throughout my holidays i would say! yippee..
nothing much this week...except for cell on wed, tuition on thurs and xscension on sat! (im still hoping that my mum wun say anything).. grr..

//posted by ivy @ 14:36//

Saturday, June 14, 2003

third and final day of retreat. over.

once again, it has been great. fantastic. and i am not regretting attending any part of it.
im beginning to get quite used to Pastor Tim ler.. after all, we are "stuck" with him for like 3 days!! hahaz..

tmr is going to be another great day. =)

//posted by ivy @ 22:43//

Friday, June 13, 2003

second day of retreat. over.

i learnt so much today. and i was actually feeling so glad and joyous as i made my way down to sac today. even though i was a little late (but of cuz, they din start without me!) hehz.. and was having a slight headache. but well, im glad i went and i was blessed. a great deal.

as usual, the food attracts me the most! hahz.. we had "zhui kuey" for breakfast, lunch was rice with fried egg/onion and chicken, tea break was 'nine layer cake'.. good food eh? getting better by the day! muahahz.. i can't wait for tmr! hahz..
and i watched 'finding nemo' with dear today! so soo sooooo nice!!!! awww.... so sweet. =)

yup, tmr's retreat is together with the musicians. after dat, going to meet wanling for her git and follow-up. and after which, have music prac and then, home swt home.

home sweet home?? hmm.. mayb not that sweet ler.. sianz. =(

muz look at the brighter side of my day tmr.. den i'll smile! hehz.

//posted by ivy @ 22:44//

Thursday, June 12, 2003

first day of retreat. over.

it was great. kinda unexpecting. on my way there, i was preparing for pastor to teach some heavy teachings. as in more towards the Word. but well, pleasant surprise eh?! hehz. but of cuz, it was really beneficial. for all of us, now and in future.

and we really ate a lot huh? hahaz.. it's like 1 to 1.5 hrs of session followed by 1/2 to 1 hr of break! not bad leh.. and every break is packed with food! muhaahhzz.. im going to have a fantastic time tmr and sat!! =)

i got a terrible dream this morning as i awake to the ringing of my hp. i dreamt that i scored all Cs for my 4 modules this time round and i din get into the specialisation i wan. agrgrgrrrr... this must not happen! wad a scare..
but then again.. im not going to be surprised if i have any Cs this time round. simply cos i din study that hard and yah.. stats and accts simply not my kind!.... am i glad i din get into accountancy!? hurhur..

yup yup..juz a short update. going to relax a bit.. watch the 9pm chinese show and go zzzzz ler. tmr is another long day, with teachings and.. food!! oopsie.. =)~

and oh yes.. if i forgot everything pastor mentioned today.. i guess the only two things that stayed deep in me were..:
1. love the one you marry, not marry the one you love.
2. look into the person's family plight when we come across frens who are 'emotion-drainer'.

time to go. ta-ta..
*poofffffffffff

//posted by ivy @ 20:46//

Saturday, June 07, 2003

sucky feeling im having now.

sianz. frustrated. lost. unfair. teary.
grrrr.....

i wish you're here, dear.

//posted by ivy @ 16:28//

Wednesday, June 04, 2003

i got B for my social work module.. it's an elective so im not very concerned about the grade. plus the fact that i studied for it the day before the paper..and it only took me 4 hours. =)

this is my fifth B so far.. four from last sem. and this being the fifth. i wonder how many more to come..

//posted by ivy @ 16:14//

Monday, June 02, 2003

haven blogged for a week!! hahahz... hols mahz, now too busy to blog even. =)

let me juz recap of my activities last week...
i cut my hair a little on mon at jantzen.. hahz! ex eh.. after dat, went for a mini shopping trip with sharon at JP, had an hour of rest at coffee bean, enjoying our coffee and tuna pie.. then off we went to shopping again! muahahaz..

went out with my class for lunch, pool and an hour of ktv on tues.. i had whipped cream up my nose!! thanks to the bunch of them who insist that i use my mouth to eat the cherry on top of the cake.. and thus, took the chance to pop my face into the cake. hahz.. met dear after that.. for movie and dinner... and i love my pressies!! yeah... *smiles widely.. reached home at hmm.. hmmm.. hahz.. very very late. slept till noon the next day.

went for cell on wed.. no teaching, only got sharing and a time of prayer for each other.

thurs had tuition..

fri, i met up with wanling for follow-up and received a sweet surprise. =) went for prayer meeting after that.. then supper.

sat... meetings, prac, dinner at uncle james place.. thomson is far manz. by the time i travelled home, my stomach feels empty ler. haha.

sun is churchie day. had youth.. celebrated becky's bday. went over to his place watch movie.. =)

okie dokie.. that's my so called exciting week.. but not bad lahz. considering that it was the second week of hols.
someone juz called me.. dunno from what company. asked me if i could work from now till july. it's an admin job at woodlands.hmmm? should i?.... but seems impossible cos of the retreat from 12th-14th.. can't possibly take leave cos it's a temp job. so it's out..
okie lahz.. i got to do something now. ta-ta.. *smiles*

//posted by ivy @ 13:34//