y *the love and grace of God in my life..*

Monday, February 25, 2008

i'm thankful/blessed for my husband-to-be, because i know he loves me for who i am, despite my shortcomings, my whines and the times i made him unhappy and angry.
he cares for me so much that i wonder what have i done to deserve all these and no matter how bad the situation is, being in his embrace brings both smiles and tears to my face.. and it makes everything alright again.

if a man, who is inperfect, can love me, cares for me so much and being in his embrace can make things whole again,
how about God who is perfect, whose love for me is ever-lasting and unconditional right from the start?
Who keeps no records of wrong when i seek His forgiveness, and who looks after me unceasingly?

'Moving in the Spirit' weekend was one which i didn't regret going (although i was so tired on friday evening that it was hard to start worshipping initially) and i look forward to the series in June when Pastor Joseph is coming back to Singapore again.
the presence of God was undeniable in the place; it was good to be able to soak in His presence and to be touched and refreshed again.

met Huiling on friday evening to discuss the plans for cell and as much as it seems like a small role to take on, i want to treat God's calling with respect. it has been two years since i stepped down from youth leadership and it's time to go back serving Him in the area that i've been given the giftings in.


//posted by ivy @ 15:04//

Thursday, February 21, 2008

i'm thankful for the long holiday this break - a total of 9 weeks!
though this is the 3rd week already and it's ending soon.. plus my march is quite packed with trainings and problems to craft and IG planning to do and... blah blah.
but.. it's still a break that is superbly welcomed by all! =)

and since we're having holiday.. the students are equally free, and so, my dear violet is now helping out with various things for the wedding
doing up the designing of wedding invite and order of service for us, and giving some nice ideas for the montage.. whee! =)

i had a really scary dream this morning but it was so real
everything in the dream was so real, and each time i wake up and go back to sleep, it continues where it stops
i remembered holding dear's hand so tightly and the ring was there too
i remembered mimi the cat being in the dream
i remembered everything i told my boyfriend in the dream..
and it scared me when i woke up because in the dream, i was so very teary for someone who is passing away
but each time im awake, everything still stayed so vivid


//posted by ivy @ 14:41//

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

i'm so efficient today! =)
- called up the caterers to check and now waiting for emails
- called up freelancer for wedding invites and inserts
- called up florist and made an appointment
- called up 5 interior designers and made an appointment with one as well

okie..and i'm not doing any work. haha!
nothing much to do.. oh well, there are some small itsy bitsy things but i'm just procrastinating.

meeting violet in a while since she's helping out for the wedding and having dinner with her before WISE phase 2.

haven't drove for nearly a month and feels a bit weird behind the wheel today.

and lastly, i love my ring! what a pleasant surprise!
supposed to collect end of the month but i guess the re-sizing was pretty fast and my dear fiance sprang a surprise on me yesterday when i was over at his place.
it's sitting comfortably on my finger now.. its new home! =)

oh.. and i still can't get used to it when people say "he's no longer your boyfriend. it's fiance!" or some goes "husband-to-be". =)


//posted by ivy @ 15:58//

Monday, February 18, 2008

the song that has been ringing in my heart since service yesterday:

Come Holy Spirit
by City Harvest Church

-Verse-
Come Holy Spirit
Fall on me now
I need Your annointing
Come in Your Pow'r

I love You Holy Spirit
You're captivating my soul
And everyday
I grow to love You more

-Chorus-
I'm reaching for Your heart
You hold my life in Your Hand
Drawing me closer to You
I feel Your Power renew

Nothing compares to this place
Where i can see You face to face
I Worship You
In spirit and in truth

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Pastor Raymond spoke on the topic of Mary and Martha yesterday and immediately, it brought to memory the book i bought for celine for her birthday
i want to borrow it from her after she's done! =)
and of course, read it after i finish the current book - the fear of God.

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ten more months to go before the big day
but many many things to do in the meanwhile
and i pray that in the midst of all the preparation, i'll not be distracted.
maybe, just maybe.. the theme of the wedding could be the simple yet profound word - Joy


//posted by ivy @ 16:11//

Friday, February 15, 2008

my dreaded problem crafting is finally ending.. halfway cleared.
spent monday afternoon and tues afternoon to get the 3 documents done for problem review on wed morning
and i was glad that it was a stress-less meeting
good comments here and there; basically the materials i prepared just need to be amended here and there to make it flow better

full set of materials due today but i haven't got anything done! haha.
told jane i'll give her by end of monday.. that leaves me the entire mon morning to finish, vet and send.

v-day yesterday
wasn't a special day for me because i never believed in celebrating it since it's simply a commercialized day
spent the evening with 8 other colleagues - 7 girls and 2 guys in total
and out of the 7 girls, 2 are married and 2 are attached! so it's not singles-night out after all. it was fun! the camera was our (the girls') constant friend.

spent the past hour slacking away in front of my comp, making full use of the internal available to chat with sharon and checking out singaporebrides.com
super duper good forum.. you can just spend time reading through everything and that can take you a really long time!

boyfriend is busy this entire week so i'll only get to see him during the baptism service on sat
next week is equally packed too.. the life of teachers!
me being so free now.. since i'm on holiday but he's not. boo.


//posted by ivy @ 17:06//

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

received a msn message from marilyn this morning
she is one of my ex-students two years back and before i knew it, she broke the news that one girl in class (her classmate, peiying) had passed away yesterday

taking a moment to recall, i remembered who she was
always bubbly, smiling and fun-loving girl in class, and i thoroughly enjoyed having her in class in the past
coming back to my office, i saw the thank-you note she gave me at the end of the semester with her
it was a painful moment though i've not kept in touch with her for the past years (having her in my msn doesn't really count; we only chatted a few times)
it feels weird to see her nick in my msn now, and to know that it'll never appear online again.


what a beautiful girl, and she is gone.
lost the battle against cancer and it was too late when the doctors discovered it.

life - so unpredictable
what a strong and firm reminder that what's here today, can be gone tomorrow
indeed, each living day i've is a gift from God, and a sign of his patience towards us.


//posted by ivy @ 17:23//

Saturday, February 09, 2008

elder step-sis is here today, with bro-in-law and their 3 kids plus maid
the first time in many years that we actually spent time talking about my life, my work etc
they were both happy to know that i'm a christian now and that i'll be having my wedding in church
sometimes i wonder how would things have turned out if my parents haven't been so political about things and started outcasting some of my relatives
it's such a joy to have them in my life and i really miss my cousins!

in any case, i shall try all my best to invite most of them to my wedding. =)

a gentle reminder to discuss the following with baby:
- check out photographer (Tian Sheng) and make-up artist (Meiling)
- check out Summit Design (Alex, James or William)
- check out Home Success
- check out Plush Living
- check out I-bridge (Tommy, Alvin)
- check out Weiken (Future homes)


//posted by ivy @ 18:54//

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

the most unique reunion dinner i have ever had - it was steamboat at baby's place with his family, his grandma, uncle, aunt and cousin.
nice yummy food and i ate so, so much!

he won't be around for the next two days so no going out as usual during CNY like what we used to do
time for me to rest and maybe do some planning for wedding (if there's any i can do on my end)

oh yah, the proposal is up on his blog
--> www.notti.blogspot.com.


//posted by ivy @ 23:55//

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

sat.
the day of the wonderful proposal
i've decided that i'm not going to blog about it; if you want to know, you got to ask either one of us or you can wait to see if my boyfriend blogs about it but i might just put up pictures at a later time.

sun.
went to resize the engagement ring at night and took a look at their wedding bands as well
tried on quite a few and both of us pretty much like one of the designs
took us around 15 mins in total before we confirmed our purchase eventually - they will custom made for us! yippie. brand-new rings! =)

mon.
took leave to enjoy a little bit more
boyfriend drove me to town for my facial and spa package with two of my colleagues
what a way to start the day uh.
after which, we proceeded to grand plaza park hotel to enjoy the yummy lunch and complimentary "lo hei" too.
joyce and i then made our way to paragon for me to upgrade my credit cards
after she sent in her phone for repair, headed to shop at forever 21 and ended with a drink at starbucks before heading home.

tues.
a pinkie day for most of the girls
we all turned up in pink rather spontaneously without prior planning
lena, elena, gail, jacq, jane and me!
took a few ridiculous pictures while waiting for staff meeting to start and headed for a drink after that in cafe because they wanna hear the proposal story
slacked till 2 plus and tried to do some work in office
but most of us failed, left office at 5pm
lena accompanied me for dinner at cavana while i ordered the kids' meal again!


//posted by ivy @ 22:33//

Saturday, February 02, 2008

a memorable five years together, and many more years to go
i had the most exciting anniversary celebration this year, because it's also the time where he proposed.

i love you so much dearie!

will you marry me? - and i said YES! -


//posted by ivy @ 23:55//