*the love and grace of God in my life..*

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

i went back to work officially last friday but was super zoom-bi-fied.
i felt a little lost, like timing wise and the system
i had to invigilate an UT and my laptop hung on me. the temp laptop was hard to use; it was running on vista and i didn't know where were all the usual icons i used

in any case..a long weekend and it's back to school again.
the letter of offer came today
one hour later, i heard about the news of upcoming pay review in my current office
woah. what nice timing.

i've been checking out on the new job offer online for the past few hours
part of me wants to move on.. part of me wants to stay in the comfort zone of my current workplace
i've till 11 nov to decide before the offer lapses.

i know for sure that if work-life balance is something i'm looking for in the years to come, my current work clearly satisfies it, almost 90%.
i'm also very comfortable with how the academic system works, how i can work "smart" in various situations..
3.5 years (almost) here, of course i know how to work smart here.

somehow, i'm quite sure i won't be able to sleep well tonight again
this is going to be on my mind.

//posted by ivy @ 00:28//

Thursday, October 23, 2008

about this time last week, i was slowly making my way to the dentist
this time this week, the pain is gone but there's a big hole.

alright. i'm kinda tired of repeating the story.
the gist of it being,
i was watching TV while eating chicken rice bought from bukit panjang plaza foodcourt
not really checking the rice, there was a crashed chicken bone amidst the rice and i bit into it real hard
no blood or anything, just a very sharp pain in my entire lower gum
so i continued my dinner with the pain and the days after
5 days later, the pain got so bad that it woke me up in the morning
went to dentist, took x-rays and he said i needed a small surgery
before i knew it, i shook my head when he asked if i was pregnant
and then, 4 jabs of LA numbed my gum
while pulling out my poor molar, i felt the pain again and two more jabs of LA
after 30 mins, my tooth was out
and so was the chicken bone.

when i finally asked him what exactly happened
he said that the chicken bone cracked the upper quadrant of my molar and pierced into my gum and why i needed 2 additional jabs of LA was because my gum was infected due to the chicken bone

end of story. clap clap.
ouch.. i shudder when i think of it.

the next day after the surgery, i met some of my cell members for dinner at clementi hawker
almost everyone was eating chicken rice on the table..some roasted, some white chicken.
i wonder if i'll ever eat chicken rice again. =(

//posted by ivy @ 15:36//

Saturday, October 18, 2008

it's a long break from work these two weeks and probably the coming one as well
i hope i don't feel awkward when i'm back
probably hard to adjust the timing so far becos i've been waking up at noon but should be ok after a while?

mini surgery at the dentist on thurs
i'm horrible when it comes to tolerating pain in my gums and so a total of 6 jabs of LA needed
the dentist laughed and said "the usual only need 3-4, you used 6!"
painful.

i should insert one more line into the wedding vow "in toothful or toothless..."
haha.

//posted by ivy @ 21:34//

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

i have never felt so lousy due to work
neither have i cried so much and felt like giving it all up

i'm thankful for the group of close colleagues
for their prayers, their sms-es and emails.

i'm thankful for my fiance
for being there to listen patiently and even through the phone conversation, i felt loved.

and as i reflected, i thank God for His reminder that there is no need to receive recognition from others but Him.
He is the one who has placed me where i am today, not the bosses whom i'm working for.
in fact, i think i've been rather blessed this semester
being in RP for 3 yrs plus, there is always one class in each semester that annoys me.. in fact, it happens to most of us.
but this semester, i'm delightful and excited each time i go for class.. i love my classes!

this entire week, i'm not there to facilitate classes
but i'll try to be back from next week onwards.. and fulfill my duty of being an educator. =)

there's just so much tears i can have, and things remain the same no matter how much i cry and be upset
what a learning journey.

i'm wide awake now.. but i shall try to lie down and see if i can sleep.

//posted by ivy @ 23:32//

Monday, October 06, 2008

it's the parents' meeting session tonight
they are meeting for the first time, and we're heading to a vegetarian restaurant for dinner in 2 hours' time.

i dunno what to expect but well, I think I'm gonne try to enjoy the food. =)

took leave today; slept in late
did grading for last thurs' class and not even done yet.
that goes to show how distracted i'm throughout the afternoon.

3 continuous days of classes from tue-thurs.

//posted by ivy @ 17:12//

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

i slept for a good 5 hours in the afternoon
there wasn't any motivation to get up so even though my alarm rang at 4pm, it was ignored.
i woke up at 6.30pm, just in time for dinner.

this week is a short week, with only two classes because of hari raya
but after this week, it's back to 3 classes per normal again..
one week term break at the end of october which essentially is busier because all my problem materials are due and PP assessment etc.
then it's a horrid november and half of december with no break at all.

after tmr's lesson, i would have survived a quarter of the semester
the next two quarters are real killers.
mid-nov is a tough week too. within the span of two weeks, i've 4 events going on at the same time, on top of my 3 classes workload. =x

3 more months.

//posted by ivy @ 22:55//