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Friday, September 29, 2006 exactly 4 months before things come to a total haul a moment of relief and a time of release past memories of the moment - picture postcards for the mind from strangers to pod mates to friends - companions worthy of keeping when the clock hit 3pm yesterday, my heart leaped from the nervousness of what's to come and what i might hear through the one hour of conversation, i had a revelation on how the entire saga started and why it finally ended the fact that i'm in their list of "our types of girls" amazes me it has never occurred to me that way, but now i see things from a totally different perspective the result of it, discounting whatever they said by a good 50% and yep, i've decided. saga ended. lesson learnt. time to move on the last time i'm saying it the next time you catch me harping on it, pinch me. //posted by ivy @ 14:48//
Thursday, September 28, 2006 it's weird, because initially, i thought i wouldn't be used to the free days now i realise, it's not free days actually it's fire-fighting days. i tried grading since morning but i kept getting interrupted by emails and people asking stuff eeks. i'm supposed to finish grading by 3pm, then a short chat with a colleague i mentioned in my previous entry, then discussion with students, then a jog, then more discussion eeeeeeeekks. to top it off, i've not prepared for class tmr. gross. what's happening to "academic work is first priority"? bleah. //posted by ivy @ 14:35//
Wednesday, September 27, 2006 it was from the least expected person on my contact list, under 'RP staff' not many messages transpired, but they were daunting enough to make me think twice before crafting a response in addition, they stirred up a sense of immense curiosity at the end of the conversation, i promised to meet up over a drink in the cafe one day the idea behind it all, i want to know what i deserve to know and what better way than to meet up with the buddy of the subject //posted by ivy @ 23:06// an entry for you, thanks for being there when i really needed someone so much it's amazing how you are always there when i need someone to talk to about a certain issue which only you know it best just a moment ago, i was recalling how you first knew about it it was during the ferry ride to batam and i won't forget how i tortured you about it auzzie idiots - not worth it i've spent enough time on it and it's time to move on give it a month; i should be fine you take care alright, and i just wanna let you know that, i'm here for you too! i love you, mummy! //posted by ivy @ 00:37//
Tuesday, September 26, 2006 i sit here at my desk, looking at the things around me and memories just flood in i remember the days where you used to drop by and leave little messages at my board, and i'll come to work everyday waiting to see what's new on my board i remember the days where we'll head for breakfast if we've no facilitation or a drink in the afternoon where sleepy bug hits us i remember the days where we'll chat on msn endless, almost every moment where there's network i remember how encouraging you were during times when i'm tied down grading UTs and handling projects it's all gone. just like that *click* an excerpt from msg archive: a princess who recently came to pod, and swept me off my feet //posted by ivy @ 11:51//
Sunday, September 24, 2006 it was a totally different experience compared to the one i went in august i remembered blogging a very detailed entry about it, and i might just do so again now ubin // 2 staff leaders // 17 students [day 1] gathered at 8am, changi jetty by 8.30am, all arrived and we started our first exercise - PEEP assessment, before departing on the bum-boat and reaching aunty doreen's place just on time headed off to another kampong which was already evacuated because of the falling roof figured that it should be ok so we stayed there for timeline planning after that, i had some of them who came to me and shared with me very honestly how they felt and what they thought could be done to help the entire team i was so glad to hear that - to see that they have the ownership for the team, the project and the trip, to know that they are truly the bunch of people who will stand alongside with the staff leaders till the trip headed back during noon and the students spent a great deal of time preparing for lunch a good 2 hours and they whipped up rice, vegetables, fish and chicken, all using the traditional method of cooking i hope it was a good experience for them because we refused to help in any sense afternoon was social tree at the coconut place and then we had OSG to come down to help us with the EMS process truly tiring session before dinner preparation this time round, we asked aunty doreen not to provide them with generator so it was cooking and having our dinner - pasta, corn and potato in the dark a small debrief for the day before we started the night session on life journey glad that most were rather open and frank with how they felt till now life journey took a long time but i'm sure it was useful to a certain extent when it ended, some went to bed, some of us stayed up to talk to aunty doreen and her hubby she got bitten by a centipede and we saw how her hubby reacted they then shared with us some very useful tips that we are definitely going to need when we are over in chiangrai headed to bed at 1 plus, where i had to squeeze with the guys because of space constraint finally fell asleep only at 2 plus and woke up at 4 plus because of the noise outside - the malay girls were preparing their breakfast due to fasting period it was only then i realised a guy student got bitten by centipede at his head as well interesting night of rest i've the guys were nice because i didn't have to sleep right next to the wall; they positioned me right in the middle, felt really protected then i had my buddy who probably missed my twinnie too much that he thought i was twinnie in his sleep and my idiot bro who attempted to numb my legs in the middle of the night, and then strangled me in the morning but all in all, it was hilarious [day 2] woke up really late but still in time for breakfast and preparation for the last exercise of the trip - majoria/minoria most of them were dead tired by then did goal-setting before we left for coconut drink, and finally van ride and bum-boat back to mainland it was quite a sight at changi jetty because all the girlfriends came to surprise their boyfriends! headed for lunch with the ohanas and cedrik was so nice to send us back to the west i had a good sleep in his car and he actually could remember where i stayed after sending me back few nights ago it's amazing because he's not even from rp and we hardly, really know each other that well yet but he's so close to us! ~the end~ through the trip, i've the following to say: - i've no idea how the closeness among the ohana started but i'm so thankful for them - sometimes, the youngest member can be the most matured member - those who went through much in life have a lot to share that we all can learn from 2 more months to the trip i'm feeling really excited if i stay focused on the macro aspects of it all but i'm also determined to do what i can to ensure that the team is ready and a fulfilling trip for each individual as well //posted by ivy @ 20:36//
Friday, September 22, 2006 the night before was a nightmare - being in the office allocating the 106 classes and inputting the quiz etc plus my co-module chair couldn't be around on the first day and i was also on stand-by i didn't think i had much decent rest that night things went smoothly yesterday though a little confusion in the morning but was settled fast went out with ohana yesterday for dinner at bugis chill-out at jiaming's place after dinner and cedrik sent me home after that super tired. first class today initially thought the class was a real quiet one but turned out to be quite okie guess they still need some time to warm up - i really hope so, else i won't be looking forward to each week had a series of meeting after lessons and preparing for ubin training tmr still stuck in office now, waiting to collect stuff from ALC before going off for dinner haven packed yet - not a surprise right? weekend is 3/4 gone, with me being at ubin then again, it probably would be a blasting time ahead~ mood for yesterday and today: pure silence looming around emotions running all over time to pick up and move on not worth it, you. //posted by ivy @ 20:33//
Wednesday, September 20, 2006 despite not doing much, but i guess i didn't exactly rest very well amidst all the issues happening in the office it was a horrid day yesterday the worst of all ever since the whole saga started it was also the end of the saga our nicks probably reflect our mood for the day "Shadow where the sun don't shine" "Sweet memories that haunt and hurt" it has to come at such a time - where i probably need all the support i can from office/dept/pod today was overwhelming the number of calls and emails i've to answer and reply to - insane i figured i'll be stuck here, right at my seat till late night tmr's the first day of school, semester 2 i'm not prepared, and i'm scared. //posted by ivy @ 16:25//
Monday, September 18, 2006 doing up the materials for briefing in the afternoon lunch was a real rushed one - couldn't concentrate much on my food with the back of mind still thinking of what to do/say but i've got real interesting colleagues who used the situation to spice up the lunch time and at the same time, tease me endless all in all, i'm real glad i've much support from the dept and those supporting the module it's good to know that while fighting the G106 battle, they are alongside. needless to say, my boss and co-mc have been real encouraging as well they've not been that picky with the stuff i submitted and half the times i thought the materials will get rebounce back, they didn't. haha. briefing went on fine mass briefing to the entire crowd at the boardroom was an experience with my director, asst director and my future boss around, it adds on the unnecessary pressure/stress but all were cooperative. so glad. more or less prepared for the semester so far im real tired though need a good sleep the weather lately has been rather cooperative, but not when it's early morning and i've to wake up but, the bed seems to be sticking to me ah alright time to focus. had a long conversation with my colleague last night perhaps it was the time of the night, because the usual me wouldn't probe such issues then again, i suppose i should be glad i did certain critical things were mentioned, and the way forward is pretty straight-forward self-explanatory if you want to call it time-check i blogged all these in 3 mins. the same amount of time i took to pen down my thoughts when i was at aloha. //posted by ivy @ 17:13// perhaps it's the lack of students during this holiday period the school is quieter, seems to have more space to move around i was walking around school and realised how much it has changed since the first day i started work in the new campus while we were all complaining of the plain zen-ish design, with white and grey being the main colors, everything seems to fall in place nicely i'm beginning to like the spacious design of the buildings, the lawn area when it's not raining and yeah, the open-ness of the entire structure i'm beginning to love my pod as well to be exact, my huge workstation it's getting a little crowded and messy because yours truly has not much time to pack started since the recce trip and stuff just stacked on. backlog is killer man i've actually set aside 3 hours on tues morning just to settle everything let's see how successful i'll be and i'm also intending to set aside one hour tmr just to clear my workstation up it'll be a quiet 3 days ahead sta guys are away half of my dept people in my pod is away on leave as well oh well. i can survive //posted by ivy @ 00:18//
Sunday, September 17, 2006 The welcome sign on the wall Made my heart bounced like a ball Looking in the hall of people I couldn't catch a sign of you at all A walk out into the night To catch a glimpse of your sight Being twice at my side I lost my focus I decide ** written at aloha changi chalet f; amazing what being in the proximity far away from office can do to us //posted by ivy @ 13:50//
Friday, September 15, 2006 first meeting was at 10am and at 8.30am, i was still sleeping the weather was simply superb for lazing in bed headed to school via cab (again) the meetings went fine lunch was with a huge bunch of people there was at least 15 of us! but of course, the closer group of us sat together still back to office for some admin work before leaving for NUS helped choon hou to bring his students over for some entrepreneurship event it was so hard to stay awake after that was a short session of networking saw my jc friend and while chatting with her, saw a guy whom i met last year at a global entrepreneurship conference he could recognise me as well that's how small the industry is same series of events - almost the same people you can expect after that, met a colleague from sta for dinner at holland village having warm porridge at crystal jade while the weather drizzled on was a good idea now back thinking if i shld go sleep now so that i can get my long, long rest before meeting huihui tmr morning for the S-L proposal might just head to office earlier to tidy up the loose ends - do my presentation slides for briefing on mon - clear ME01 6th P and etc - class allocation, standby list - buddy system etc. //posted by ivy @ 21:59//
Thursday, September 14, 2006 you're the module chair for a huge module to come and have been fighting fire with your problem crafters and a particular director for weeks now. it's finaly your IG camp and after a long day of meetings, you make your way down to a place which is on the far side of the island. it's dark when you arrive and your students upon seeing your laptop asked, "why the heck are you holding a laptop and why are you so late?" "slacking at home ah?" "huh? holidays also need to work? don't bluff lah cher.." you're currently facilitating 2 or 3 classes and on days you appear in jeans on campus, your students saw you and asked, "wah cher.. no class ah? so good.. then you come school for what?" "huh? you mean facilitators dun teach everyday ah? damn shiok leh..so free/slack" you're marking their horrid understanding tests of 2900+ scripts which has just ended a week ago, and when students see you in campus, they asked, "cher.. when is the UT grade coming out? why you all take so long to mark one?" you're having a bad headache thinking of a good problem statement and worksheet for the students and keeping in mind that those materials need to clear through a particular director, your students see you and asked, "cher, dun need stress mah. i thought problem statement on the spot can think one?" "uh? you all take so long to do meh? just take a problem and write it out lor.. only meant to torture us anyway." you're rushing for your meetings in between lessons and staying late in school, your students see you on msn and asked, "cher..why you always got meetings? nothing better to do ah?" "aiyah.. relax la. go there and just listen lor, need to prepare one ah?" you're taking more than one day to publish their grades, your students see you and asked, "cher.. where's our grades? why so long.. you all only need to teach what." ...... sometimes when i'm packed to the max doing stuff for them and they posed me such questions, i just wanna scream at them sometimes, i don't mind explaining to them patiently random rants. i'm still overwhelmed by the sudden joy that i don't have to see the particular director on a weekly basis anymore whee~ //posted by ivy @ 21:22// this time next week, i'll be heading over to my class for 3rd meeting urgh how fast time flies the holidays have been a good time of relaxation although not much chance but the fact that the kids are not around makes a difference la. had a great time of dinner and catching up last night 7 of us went for dinner - kok whye, juliet, choon hou, leslie, kelvin, jane and me inner-circle gathering uh? after dinner, we had an overseas call with mummy i miss her!! mummy, i've got so much to tell you! had a good rest today; slept till so late took half-day off-in-lieu just to catch up with my sleep now that the issue with a particular director is over and done with i should start being more organized and get things going and i'm rather motivated to do that time to go off. tata~ //posted by ivy @ 13:57//
Wednesday, September 13, 2006 mon - we had a super long session of bbq, all the way till midnight before we are done! washed up, a short session with the yr 2s before attempting to sleep which was absolutely impossible. the yr 1s next door was making so much noise! tues/wed - a test of their physical where we had laser quest in the morning and food game at geylang in the afternoon, and we then prepared our own sumptuous dinner till 9pm. a long dinner, stayed around to chit-chat till real late. we then went to explore around other chalets cos there were republicans around. chatted a while before making our way to changi village but we didn't purchase anything. haha. had intermittent chats with colleague who is heading the other IG over at the next door chalet. finally gave up at around 7am before i went for a real short sleep till 9am. checked-out. i'm now in office, zombified. was back in office yday afternoon as well for module meeting with director of acad and i'm back today for the same purpose totally exhausted but there's still the dinner with kok whye and the rest tonight one week before the horrible semester of 11 weeks commences i'm feeling the jitters and i really don't feel good given the stupid lags in our schedule, all becos of someone gosh. if you ask me what i need now it'll probably be a nice warm hug before letting me zonk out. horribly exhausted. //posted by ivy @ 16:06//
Sunday, September 10, 2006 1st-4th sept a real insightful reconnaissance trip to chiangrai and chiangmai we visited the various hill-tribes, payap uni and an orphanage and saw the past projects with mirror arts at the end of the trip, we had a mini reflection and what hit me most was how much passion these people have towards service-learning and helping the hill-tribes that they were willing to give up so much in their lives past few days have been a mad rush reviewing problems is fine but not with some problem crafters who simply refused to believe that their problems were not fine facing director of acad is not joke; up to clear problem but ended up listening to him talk for one hour and yet, refused to look at it he's creating a huge lag in our time schedule! dept retreat on fri was half-dry and half-fun the presentation portion made me fall asleep the laser quest was fun! met jacob for the first time after him being here for the entire week was only then i realised the world could get that small he's the brother of my primary school classmate, whom i didn't quite like he's the church friend of two guys, whom happened to be the closest guy colleagues i've in the dept he's the friend of 5 of my church/crusade friends, whom they all refer him to talk to me when he first mentioned he wanted to join rp he's my junior batch in ntu and now, he's my colleague in the same dept and same portfolio whoa. session with S-L students yesterday was good other than those who didn't turn up (and with no valid reasons somemore!), the rest who were present were good had dinner with jackie, gareth, sze how and sulaiman at JP for the first time, i felt so close to home! tmr to wed will be IG teambuilding camp next mon will be class bbq next weekend will be ubin training with the S-L students and not to forget, school starts next thurs. gross. //posted by ivy @ 14:23// |