*the love and grace of God in my life..*

Monday, January 31, 2005

it feels real uncomfy not being able to log on and slack online the past few days
my hard disk somehow decided to rebel and got corrupted during this crucial moment. how i dislike my comp!

but...
through the crash, i saw how im blessed through my classmate and mich's fren, chasel.
tried recovering my stuffs last night while receiving instructions from chasel thru the phone; nvm he's someone whom i dun even have a frenship with
despite the fact he doesn't have free incoming, doesn't gain anything from helping a stranger like me, he was patiently guiding me thru the process
couldn't recover in the end so he said to dismantle the cpu, take out the hard disk and copy my impt files to a fren's comp or his.
sent a sms to my classmate for help
and within a minute, he called and said he's on his way to my house
that was near 11pm!
he came, took my hard disk and said he'll copy my files into his comp for the time being
and hopefully, my hard disk is not damaged
near midnight, he sms-ed again to offer his help in another manner
if my hard disk is damaged, his hostel is open for me to do my fyp whenever i need to
how blessed i'm! =)

these few days have been a hoo-ha.
mini-argument with my mum over trivial stuffs
my failed attempt at pizza (i still haven figured out why the dough din rise) on sat
fyp data collection which drove me mad
how i snapped at poor tracy while she was trying to soothe me when i was in tears

but all in all,
i thank God for fri night's data collection
for cell on sat, although tracy and candice couldn't make it, but im sure we learnt a lot thru the role-play and discussion
the short dinner at clementi
the 'black top and brown bottom' drumming gals yday for being there

//posted by ivy @ 16:09//

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

these two days have been fine
was really sleepy during the resort lesson this morn but mr. nice-guy started talking abt our field trips which made me awake
he suggested going bintan.. haha!
talked abt the assignment we're supposed to do, seems pretty manageable.
the conclusion is employment law is definitely the most demanding module this sem.

fyp is equally demanding of cos
it takes on the heaviest weightage and will determine whether i get a decent honours
gotta buck up a lot more for fyp these two weeks.

career fair is coming
next wed and thurs in school
i can only make it for wed since thurs is lessons all the way
looked through the list just now, already have a few in mind which i'll go and take a look
in the meanwhile this week, i've to get my resume to look more professional and appealing!

aim for tmr is to wake up at a decent time when i still can afford to say good morning and have breakfast
then it's time to squeeze into the ever-crowded biz lab to print my notes/readings etc before going cushion-hunting (hush hush~) and meeting caroline.

i thank God for the 5 babies in my cell
ever so loving and encouraging
they bring smiles to my face whenever i think of them
and of cos, the 4 drumming babies as well
and ALL of them are from tertiary cell! T2 and T3~ =)

//posted by ivy @ 23:30//

Monday, January 24, 2005

realised that i actually spent my entire weekend with the gals!

after service and a short meeting with si'er
we proceeded to keep the drums and headed to west mall
5 drumming gals at west mall for various reasons ranging from buying shampoo bottles to buying a new phone
and all that took a long 4 hours or so!
by then, we were jelly-legged.
went for a short meal at food-court before we split

went over to send baby off to camp
played with my phone on the journey back home
and slept quite soundly last night!

had a real aimless tutorial this afternoon
went to meet for fyp to collect data after that
huijun and i combed both the libraries in search for PRCs, malays and tamils to help us with our questionnaires
so far, we haven receive any rejection yet
so thankful for that.

another two or three more of such things either this week or next week
have to churn out the data soon
it's feb next week oredi and im freaking out cos of the fyp deadline!

i've yet to figure out the sound setting for my phone
i can't seem to set it to a certain silent mode i want but other than that, i've successfully learnt the samsung way of sms-ing
time to rest my tired eyes
it's 8.30am class tmr.

//posted by ivy @ 22:39//

Saturday, January 22, 2005

a sense of inadequacy and lack of confidence perhaps is the best description i can think of for myself today

on the positive side,
im beginning to feel confortable with my cell gals and we could talk about lots of things outside cell
take for example the dinner with two of them (tracy and caroline) just now; we had loads of laughter and we shared pretty much although three of us dun seem to have anything in common on the surface
but i was so wrong!
as we chatted over dinner, we actually discovered a huge similarity among all the gals in the cell and got so excited over it!
we then went to phoon huat to peep at the baking stuffs for pineapple tarts, took a
long journey of 198 back to jp, went to shop for slippers and proceeded with another session at mac-cafe
i really enjoyed myself with them! =)

but as i came back and thought abt the day,
i can't help but think that my gifting perhaps wasn't in sharing the Word, but more of bonding the group together
i could do so with so much ease - the impromptu cell dinner next week, and the crazy idea of a cell session outside german centre (okie, this was thought of by the gals)
but when it comes to the Word, i feel so ill-prepared and inadequate no matter how prepared i may be before cell begins
argh~

si'er just called
i can't sleep late tmr again; meeting at 9am in church
but i dun mind, i need to talk to him.

need to catch up with my sleep so that i wun feel tired after church tmr
and i can either go out with gals or catch up with my readings
g'nite~

//posted by ivy @ 22:35//

Friday, January 21, 2005

such a wonderful way to end the day~

although i wasn't feeling exactly happy the whole of afternoon
and even contemplated not meeting my baby in the evening
he was still the one who brought a smile to my face at the end of the day

a nice pink swatch-skin watch did the trick!
an advanced gift which ironically came at the right time. =)
*a big fat hug for you*

//posted by ivy @ 23:11//

the only difference between today and other fridays is that my baby is out of camp
and surprising enough, i'm at home the whole of today

not going to be talking much about it
haven been doing anything since i woke up
i've just been staring at the cell material for tmr and not progressing where i stopped at last night
readings are still unread

i just don't feel at all elated today
even though my baby is out and contactable

//posted by ivy @ 15:48//

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

i was standing on my table with notes all over me last night
trying to search for my research method notes to help me in fyp
sajc year books were there as well, i took the one they gave during the release of a' levels result and had really fond memories rushing thru my mind

i recalled the days when i swopped secondary sch uniform with my fren and i wore rgs uniform to school for a couple of weeks before changing to fairfield's
the meeting super early every morning at the cafe to have breakfast together with my orientation class
the intense hockey training which was twice a week along bukit timah with the seniors
the hanging out at orchard, world trade or elsewhere everyday after school
the crazy times spent with S25, S27 and orientation class
first three months came and went
when i finally settled down in sajc after that, it was another kind of life
the fun-loving friends i had went to separate colleges and classes
and i was left all alone in my new class to adapt all over again
suddenly, hockey din appeal to me as before, there wasn't anymore hanging out after school and there was nothing to look forward to everyday
that was perhaps the most miserable time in sajc

but of cos, all these came to an end when i re-dedicated my life back to God during Holy Week and got invited to wac.
i thank God for sharon, andrew and arlene
although i came into sfc pretty late into the year but they made me feel very at home, esp during the sfc camp
and life took a turn after that

it was pretty smooth till beginning of J2 when i was supposed to stay focus since it was a crucial year
but right from the first day of school, it was haywire and even now as i looked back, i marvelled at how God brought me thru all those times
and of cos, dear sharon was someone i remained thankful for and my mentor, shirley
they stayed right through everything with me. they were there when i burst into tears in the middle of nowhere, with me when i simply needed a shoulder, assurances etc.
my studies took a ride downwards, failed my block test 2 (the last exams before prelims) and got scolded horribly by mr. chu
i'll never forget that - the words he wrote on my exams script, the fear i had whenever he comes in class, the times he threw me out of econs tutorial
but again, it was him who brought me back to the reality of a'levels being in a few months time
the last lap was spent cramming concepts into my head, flipping through the entire ten-year series and having consultation with practically every tutor i had cos i was simply too weak in my subjects

the day my results were released was the day i knew the great love God had for me and how He has never left me alone even for a single second
none of my tutors had any faith that i could perform even to an average standard, not even my civics tutor
can't blame them, after all, i was among the top student in J1 and dropped all the way to rock bottom in J2
yep, it was that bad.. i scored the lowest score for econs in my entire cohort in J2.
the impact of bgr was THAT great.

looking back, the two years in sajc were the most memorable time in my life
i had my fill of havoc and crazy times but God knew when to bring me back to Him
i created the most trouble for myself through the wrong decisions and actions but God stayed there and watched over me through everything
my loving Daddy allowed me to go through all that to mould and grow me
to allow me to be a testimony for His love, His everlasting love
although it was painful and i knew i gave up at certain points, im thankful for all that had happened now
simply becos i can bear a witness to such faithfulness, grace, mercy and love!

Thank you, Daddy!

it was a wonderful time of recapping how God has been working in my life last night
and i woke up this morning feeling refreshed in the Spirit

"it's no longer i that liveth, but Christ that liveth in me.."

//posted by ivy @ 13:05//

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

it's 10am in the morning
but no! i didn't skip any lessons!
was on my way to school when an anxious diana called and rattled
'girl, where are you? dun alight okie? take the bus back to interchange, there's no lessons today. he cancelled it...'
and so, i made a u-turn back home and sitting here typing at such hours in the morning feels weird
simply becos im not usually up at such time!

with the entire morning and afternoon at home, im at a loss of what to do
i finished my readings for resort last night, with the aim of wanting to speak my mind in class, but mr. nice-guy denied me the chance to
perhaps i shld go drill deep into the law concepts so i wun feel lost in class on thurs! =)
after all, dennis ong's class is worth preparing for.

shall see if friday's breakfast/lunch at geylang materialises
oh yah, i should prepare for sat's cell now!
still contemplating if i wanna make something for them this week..

im hungry..
and im thinking of dou jiang you tiao!
celine, it's all your fault!!!

//posted by ivy @ 10:02//

Monday, January 17, 2005

look at the time now
and tell me where i should officially be?

well, i skipped my first tutorial of the sem!
woohoo~
so much for being wanting to be a goodie gal in my last sem
but since i figured that today's tutorial won't be value-adding
i took my own sweet time to enjoy lunch at home and now, am in sch lab waiting for yanyang to pop by so that we can discuss fyp

asked him to get me my favourite curry bun and soya bean drink
and i just had my lunch an hour ago
okie okie! i know what's on the girls' mind!
they must be dying to remind me of my xx% fats content.. =(
BUT i dun care!
im still going for the geylang breakfast if i can make it!
celine: tell the rest eh?
and of cos, my magic wok! wooohooooo~~~

quite a lot of readings to do when i reach home later
gotta learn to sit still and read
instead of turning around and swirl my chair to the computer area

and lastly, i love my cell! =)
and they are.. cindy, candice, caroline, joanie and tracy!
lovely girls, love ya so much! =)

ivy is in a joyous mood today! =)

//posted by ivy @ 13:40//

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

achievement for today:
- 2 sets of FYP readings
- Conspectus for labor law
- Rajanatam's Bill reading
- BATA case

i've yet to read up on the case Montgomery v Underwood 2001 for tmr's law tutorial
haven copied resort notes from diana
haven read up on BS materials
haven do up my fyp draft mini-report
shall get them done tmr morning and night.

i hope i dun fall asleep in dennis ong's class today
he's really fantastic but employment law is really chim and dry as well
i nearly drooled on my conspectus today!

fri is a long day
fyp discussion in the morning
meeting tutor in the afternoon
tuition in the late afternoon
meeting for BS material at night
but i know after all these is my long-awaited weekend!

//posted by ivy @ 22:49//

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

although i had half the day free, i ended up not doing anything constructive
the readings are still the same height, piled at the corner of my desk
my table is still as messy, maybe a little neater cos i stacked everything up

went for tuition in the evening with my new kid, zoey
she's an adorable little girl, with really loving parents
just the three of them, in a huge condo in heritage view
i took 15 mins to locate the tower and unit
what a huge condo!
she attracted my attention with her tiny silver cross stud on her right ear
upon checking, i realised there was a huge brown cross near her door area
what school are you from, zoey?
she replied timidly, fairfield methodist primary school
ahh.. it does feel great knowing that this is a christian household
there's always this joyful feeling whenever i come across any christians, be it school or elsewhere. =)

going to be seeing zoey again tmr
i have tuition with her every tues and wed
and im actually looking forward to it! =)
i must be disciplined and make good use of my free day tmr.
shall sleep early later on.

//posted by ivy @ 22:40//

i've got so much things on hand
this is horrible and it's only the 2nd week of school! =(

was on my way to canteen when we passed by the M1 booth
saw some promotional packages but it ends on this friday
and even if i wanna change my phone, i got no way to save my sms-es and contacts in zhong's laptop before i buy.
so maybe not.

tmr is a reading day
i've got to prepare for law tutorial, stressed!
and also fyp, since we're meeting tutor on fri.
another stress.

//posted by ivy @ 15:51//

Monday, January 10, 2005

monday bluesssss.
had a 2-hr tut in the afternoon right after lunch with the new-zealand tutor
he did some ice-breaking exercise with us and made us link it to organizational change implications
supposedly had another exercise to do but i guess there weren't sufficient time for dicussion
he dismissed us half an hour earlier instead!

went to catch a bite before heading to the ever crowded lab to print notes
employment law notes was one huge pile
searched for some lit review for fyp
basically quite lethargic for the whole afternoon
i wonder if the weather has anything to do with it

made a call to Petals just now
*looking forward to 5th feb.
but not so to my recess week; it's zhong's 'team-building week', or rather hell-week. =(

going to be a good gal and read up on the employment law thingy and resort readings

oh yah, stumbled upon a friend's blog through a few links
and i was SHOCKED to see the entries!
never would i expect to see my name being mentioned so often there!
anyway.. i shan't think so much abt it. simply friends would be the best.

going to multi-task
watch tv, eat, read.

//posted by ivy @ 19:15//

Thursday, January 06, 2005

horrid thursday.

i overslept this morning
was two hours late in meeting for fyp
my fyp mates had to call my house to ask my mum to wake me up!
oopsiee.
discussion was messy, three of us couldn't really come to a consensus and thus, meeting again tmr at woodlands lib in the afternoon.
kinda worried for our progress, considering the deadline is end of feb and we're barely 20% done.

went for lect without having lunch
lect'r/tutor for this module is a new zealand-er
another nice nice guy who spoke with nice and clear accent
although a short two hours lecture but it seemed horribly long when my stomach is empty and i couldn't think beyond the chicken rice at canteen B
had a late lunch before going for employment law seminar

seminar room was so freezing cold i couldn't write much
tutor for first half of the sem is dennis ong and he's fantastic!
too bad the module he's teaching is so demanding and dry, i fell asleep a couple of times
what revelation today to find out that the basis of Singapore's employment law which is based on the British laws comes from Christian ideology!
S36(1) of Employment Act mentioned abt sunday being a off-day for all workmen and that's due to God rested on the 7th day of creation
S14(1) of Employment Act mentioned abt natural justice (a procedure used for termination of employees upon misconduct) and that's due to the question God asked Adam when he first sinned by eating the fruit.
oh yes, dennis ong is a Christian.
BUT the conclusion is: Employment law is scaring me! i couldn't catch half of what dennis ong was talking about today. he was rattling about precedent cases, consideration, control test, integration test etc.
i can foresee how much attention i need to pay to this module. =(

and right after the really long 3 hours of law, it's tuition.
dunno how i survived but im back home supposedly to do research for fyp
but.. im here. geez.

time to sleep.
~Blessed 19th birthday, Celine!

//posted by ivy @ 23:23//

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

not feeling tired enough to sleep
thus, an entry to remember this hilarious day

6 crazy gals at suntec's country manna
we really looked like we owned the place
with the constant chatters, laughters and guess what?
myojo mee ringtone!
embarrassing~

went walking around suntec after dinner to digest the food
ended up in mango behaving like tai-tais
at least for me, tracy and wanling
errr, or maybe just wanling! =)
i bought a pink top in the end

tmr is a long long day
fyp in the morning, lessons from 1230-630, tuition at 730-930
i dun even have time for dinner..tsk tsk.
it's thurs oredi!
sat is coming way too soon. im getting all excited for youth/cell! =)

//posted by ivy @ 23:23//

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

friday.
though the rain came and went
and came and went
the youths still managed to have the post camp bbq.
thinking back, it was hilarious how we dealed with the passing rain which refused to stop for good
you see all the brollies popping open when the drizzle start
covering the pit, the table of food and people stopping wherever they are under the brolly they're carrying
it was a wonderful experience though, having a bbq on a rainy day
after which zhong stayed with me when the clock striked twelve and we ushered in the new year.

saturday.
had a long meeting in the afternoon
dinner at west coast market and despite the dark clouds, zhong and i made our way to west coast park
a slight drizzle almost dampened my mood
but it was obedient enough to stop just after a few mins and the rest of the night was rain-less
sat by the shore through the night and enjoyed the freezing cold breeze

sunday.
had the service in the cold berlin room and im almost certain uncle tony allowed the air-con at the front to be off! haha.
lunch was at the semi-dark cafeteria with my cell members
had a short chat with them regarding coming cell
zhong taught the gals some drumming after that
back to his house, dinner and off he went for camp

monday.
school officially started but yours truly has no lessons on mon this week due to first week being lecture and seminar week only
woke up at indecent hour, only to be asked to catch a show in town by denny
had nothing on, and haven stepped into cineleisure for long
watched a korean showcase, pretty nice story
had a nice time except the salted popcorn which almost killed my taste buds
evening was spent printing notes, course outlines and helping celine with her cover letter and resume
couldn't really get to sleep well
i conclude that im excited for lessons, that's why.

tuesday.
early early lesson at 830
i made it there just on time
tutor was a nice aussie with really blue eyes and we nicknamed him Mr. Nice-guy with blue eyes
he allowed us to come to class at 9am every tues so that we wun have to squeeze with half the population up the horrible 179 and come in yawning
more so, he said attendance was up to us
and seminar will not last for 4 hours every week
he doesn't like to read essays so assignments have to be in point form
a few sentences like these from him have gained him certain popularity oredi
at that moment, we decided we're going to call him Mr. Nice-guy

had lunch with year 1 marketing classmates
been a long time since we met up
damien got the gals a bottle of ceramic with perfume
felt so warm that he actually remembered us during his 6 months travelling and got us something
going to be heading his hall to view his 800+ pics sometime next week
a pity he's not going ohio, else we'll create havoc in cedar point!

the end of my exciting start to final sem
i'm so motivated to put in my best for this sem
going to aim for 2As again for 3 modules
and hopefully an A in FYP as well
on the sad side, huixin dropped out of cedar point
im sure she has her reasons, just felt.. =(

*sniff sniff
i hope i din catch a cold.

//posted by ivy @ 20:08//