*the love and grace of God in my life..*

Thursday, April 29, 2004

second paper end..feel kinda relieved after the paper ended.
first time, i used a second answer booklet.
but that's cos i wasted few pages oso.

anyway, had a tight time preparing for cell after my paper.
tiring man.
i only slept 3 hours last night.
went to sleep at 1am but i woke up at 4 plus and couldn't get back to sleep.
i was kinda worried for my paper..and sermon notes on 'gossip' kept running thru my mind.
and the fact that i haven prepared for cell yet, kept me wide awake till 9 plus..
when i finally gave up any hope of getting back to sleep.
woke up, revised thru and went for my paper.
and before i cld utter a short prayer, the invigilator said to start!
argh..
but God knows.. my heart!

anyway, thank God for cell attendance today, for everyone who came, for the worship, for the sharing and everything.
for the rain! woohooo..
oh yeah, we're gonna have a cell bbq/potluck! haven really decided thou.
but the idea came when i was leaving the library after printing the cell notes..
was thinking how to reward the grp who finish the game first.
in the end, i decided to sabo the grp who din manage to complete the game!
haha..
how bad and mean can i get?
no wonder, im in games this year.
haha!

*watch out..

//posted by ivy @ 00:59//

Tuesday, April 27, 2004

argh!
tmr's paper is driving me absolutely crazy, mad, nuts, haywire.. and.. insane!

and some of my classmates proudly proclaimed that they have finished the first round of revision yday!
urg..and i have two more chpts to go.
and i feel so inadequate.
cos i have simply been reading and not memorising.
and when i looked at the past yr qns, there seems no way i cld generate a 25 marks answer out of my tiny brain which has barely managed to remb everything i've read, let alone memorise them by heart.

how?
argh.
=/

*whiny whiny ivy.

//posted by ivy @ 14:19//

Saturday, April 24, 2004

one paper down.
a tough one.
makes me kinda demoralised for a moment when i was asked to stop writing.
dohz..this is perhaps the first paper of my entire 2 yrs in ntu where i can't finish my paper..and i do know how to do! that's the most yucky part!
i can do.. but i've got no time.
urgh
the setter needs to know something.
her paper is way too long for completion in 2.5 hours.
and the class agrees!

anyway, was kinda sianz.
nope.. was VERY sianz after the paper..
so i called dear up.
he was with denny and his fren
went to meet them..he wanted to watch 50 first dates..and i wan to.
told myself a comical show was what i need.
so we watched..with denny, his fren, si'er and sab who were long seated in the cinema oredi.

came home early after the show and slacked the entire thurs evening.
i had no mood to study
watched tv. read blogs. chatted on the phone.

and today.. i woke up at an indecent time of 12pm!
studied for my second paper..only managed to complete 2 chpts before i went out to meet my classmate for dinner and shopping. (he's a guy by the way..but he shops!)
after that, dear came.
spent some time together.
it really doesn't feel like it's exams!
but anyway, i needa get a breather out of my notes before i suffocate in them!

well well.. sat tmr
i'll have to piah a bit more tmr so that i can cover what i oredi plan to.
had a sms from celine. asked me to go eat thai food tmr, with some others.
mayb not man.
first, i dun wan to get sick
second, i think i wun be able to finish my notes.

ta-ta.
zzzzZZZZZzzzzzzzz..

//posted by ivy @ 00:47//

Tuesday, April 20, 2004

6 more long chpts to go before my paper.
i really hope to finish by tmr afternoon so that i have like half a day to run thru the entire mod.

and sigh..
i haven even started on anything for my next two papers which are super heavy.
the readings are thicker than my text!
and they're lit reviews or journals.
make things even harder.

coughing still.
and yday night i slept without knowing i slept
wasn't tired.. juz that my head felt weird.. kinda giddy, heavy
so plop..and i woke up due to the glaring sun into my room.

im glad im not teaching cell this week.
and i got the strong urge to get someone to share for me next wed.
cos there're no more topics from pastor anymore so i can share other topics.
but that wld mean i have to spend a much longer time.
izzit right?
that i get someone to teach cos i wanna study?
i really dunno.

//posted by ivy @ 15:09//

Monday, April 19, 2004

three more days to my first paper and im feeling totally unprepared.
in fact, im not at all prepared to take any paper and i dun have a good hunch abt my exams this time round.
feels as thou i dun understand a lot from my modules and im kinda afraid.
well well..

only managed to finish one chpt of readings till now!
i've got 9 more to go before thurs itself.
a hectic 2 weeks ahead.

dear's enlisting date somehow is known.
he checked it online.
4 months down the road, i'll have a bald bf.
in the meanwhile, i shld appreciate ruffling his hair more and him sending me home every time we're out.
....

//posted by ivy @ 18:31//

Thursday, April 15, 2004

last lesson of the sem is tmr afternoon and it marks the end of my 2nd year.
of cos taking the assumption that i clear all my papers! haha.
nah, i'll!

presentations and projects are finally over.
they went well yday.
too well! hehz.
*hush hush*.

alright. study week.
i've got exactly a week before my first paper starts.
ta-ta.

//posted by ivy @ 13:09//

Saturday, April 10, 2004

if there's only one movie i can watch this entire year, it would be "Passion of Christ"..
and i did!

it's an eye-opener for me..
in the sense, seeing it in scene and reading it in bible about the last 15 hours of Christ's life is a great difference.
there were a few scenes i just closed my eyes and hid myself in zhong's shoulder..
it's simply..so ... inhumane!
but yet, He went thru all to get me and you out of the gates of hell.

and as si'er said last night at the concert..
quote: ALL we need to do is to believe in Him and our relationship with God will be restored once again.
yep.. juz that.. it seems so little that we do compared to what God went thru.. but well, God is Love!

good friday tis year has left a huge print in my heart..
from the outreach concert to the movie.
and i thank God from the bottom of my heart.
i felt a gentle tugging at my heart last night during the concert.. and i knew perfectly what God wanted me to do.
it's high time i get serious with what i do for Him in church and not take it as a motion, a routine, a responsibility..

on top of that..
i got inspired to take my drums more seriously too!
woah..

it's a strange grouping of frens i went to watch the show with yday night, after the outreach.
si'er, denny, sindric, benedict, zhong.
hmmm..
all guys. and the bulk of their conversation?
music of cos! =)

alright.. i'd better be more disciplined and go listen to today's songs.
ooopsie..
tina: i hope u have selective eye-sight and missed this entire paragraph!

//posted by ivy @ 12:56//

Thursday, April 08, 2004

woohoo~
i love cell last night! if only we can have that kind of dynamics in worship and prayer every week!
anyway, there were almost twice the number of guys last night..and with denny and si'er ard, the atmosphere during praise, worship and prayer was simply..fantastic!
it has been some times since i felt God's presence so strongly in cell even at the beginning of the praise itself!
and for the first time, the voices sound so manly! haha.

thank God for the prayer yday as well..
although i was looking forward to the event, but somehow, i guess i took it as a routine to pray for it.. and for the non-christians..
but yday changed it all!
and it got me excited about how God is going to work in the outreach.
i could just imagine what the scene is going to be like tmr..
at 6pm or plus, people are going to swarm into german centre in big groups, in their cells.. all looking forward to the concert.
noisy chatters at all the tables and loud laughters.. esp when ice-breakers are played.. people getting to know one another..
and as they enter into the room for the event.. all seated together waiting patiently for it to start.
music starts.. the songs flow.. and the power of God moves..
woah!
and that was the exact scene that came into my mind as si'er was closing us in prayer yday!

and so.. i was thankful that op agreed to come down yday and led the session.
the excitment from them and the joy simply overflows..
and im so convinced that something great and fantastic is gonna happen!
are you?

let's join our hands together in prayer today .. even as the event may be juz tmr..
indeed, when we pray, the devil is terrified and i bet he feels helpless too!

if you're able, pray alongside with us as the tertiary cell have a sychronized prayer at 9pm to 10pm tonight!

//posted by ivy @ 13:12//

Wednesday, April 07, 2004

sigh..cos i wun get to study as what i hoped to do.
i looked thru wat i've prepared for cell tonight and i decided to change most of it.
dun feel comfortable with what i oredi have..
that'll take half a day.

im gonna plan my revision time-table so that i know my progress..
but eh, i would need to pack my notes.
and that'll take long too.

how? ;/

//posted by ivy @ 11:03//

Tuesday, April 06, 2004

it's a happy tues.
tues has never been better!

had hrrm presentation today and we kenna shot!
shot by questions from the class.. simply cos the tutor says there's marks when a grp poses qns to the grp presenting.
and so when my grp finished presenting and when i saw the number of hands going up, i knew we jialat oredi.
answered like a dozen qns!!
but all in all, we felt totally relieved the moment the tutor said we are done and the next grp's turn comes along.

went long john's to munch with grp 2.. (we're grp 1 but both grp are allies.. cos we dun shoot each other with qns during presentation!)
and i was sooo embarrassed on the bus.
shuzhen (one of my grp members) was suggesting we go for buffet after exams but she says that she can't eat much..
then jessie (another member) overheard..and made a LOUD comment on the bus.. --> "nvm, Ivy is a big-eater!"
O_O!!!

and there were like ten of us there.. soooo embarrassed! urgggghhhhh..

stayed in long john's for quite some time..
six of us..girls.. and what can we do except to yak and yak ..and hmmm.. yak!
since we from diff grps, so not very close to grp 2..
but i guess the dinner helped
then someone from grp 2 started asking everyone funny qns..
1st qn: are u attached?
2nd qn" how long oredi?
and blah blah..

and then there we go again..
talking abt so-and-so in class..
then we talked abt who not to do projs with cos they are free-riders..
and who to do with etc etc..
basically.. rubbish topics.

and we decided that round 2 of such yakking session will be after exams, buffet.
wahaha..
my fav activity!
geez.

*looks at my projs list
good. 3 more to go and not very shiong kind.

liting and joanne asked if i wanna join them to study in school tmr.
and since we're all quite lost in hrrm, i guess i will.
can push one another along and hopefully.. help each other with the 'toopid' hrrrm.

finally..
i can start revising for my exams.
phewwww..
never wanted so much to study before.

//posted by ivy @ 20:36//

Monday, April 05, 2004

i feel good!!

spent 5 hours compiling the report and slides..
and after tmr 4.30pm, hrrm is officially over..
except for studying it for exams lah.

wooohooooooooo!!~~~

//posted by ivy @ 18:38//

Sunday, April 04, 2004

what a relief!
finally done with hrrm output analysis.. disgusting!
we practically met everyday juz to do it..
and now, i gotta write some report by tonight and prepare presentation cos im presenting for my group together with two others.

totally exhausted.
nv stared so long at a computer screen for so long before..
and i feel so out of place..
i only see my proj mates and my bf these two weeks!
feel so no life.

//posted by ivy @ 17:32//