*the love and grace of God in my life..*

Sunday, August 31, 2003

i've got a baby in my room now..
hehz.. my "precious" baby. anything happens to it, marcus will come wringing my neck!

got tonnes of work to do.. but im still deciding if i shld do it or go sleep now.
yeah..i know it's early. but my eyes are cooperating with gravity.

september is here..here to stay without much invitation. how fast time flies..

i experienced something strange today.
a feeling of relief and release came upon me when i was playing 'come on and celebrate'.. and as i linked to the next song 'let the heavens rejoice and the earth be glad'..the feeling juz got stronger and stronger. and i felt so overwhelmed.
it's hard to describe.. and for a moment, i almost freaked out.
cos my mind was on stuffs which were brought to my memory..and i thought of them till i forgot i was playing. i know my hands were moving..but my mind wasn't on my moves or the songs..
freaky.

and it's weird. cos usually, during praise songs, it's juz a warm-up for me. it's always during worship songs that i start experiencing Him moving..but today, it's both!

weird. freaky. glad. encouraged. ministered. ... ~are my feelings for today.

//posted by ivy @ 20:09//

Saturday, August 30, 2003

im so stressed!!
projects, tutorials, assignments, presentations are taking up my space, my time and my sleep!

this is NOT fair!!!

ARRRGGHHHH !!!!

//posted by ivy @ 00:27//

Tuesday, August 26, 2003

i feel weird.
emotional perhaps.
you can't blame me for feeling this way.

i realised how unpredictable life is.
and i made a promise to myself.

to tell my loved ones how much i appreciate and love them at the end of each day.
and even if i dun get the chance to.. they're still in my prayers.

//posted by ivy @ 20:10//

i wish time stands still.
i need a breather.

i know why i feel so drained this sem, compared to the previous two sems.
because..
im giving myself additional stress when i tell myself i wanna do well this sem.

i thank God for the times when i was reminded of my commitments and my priorities.
that no matter how much work i have in line to do..
wed cell, prayer meetings, d-class, music prac, sun svc and youth svc are still His. these are the very things that i'm always tempted to compromise with.. but again and again, His reminder comes so clearly and gently.

and i pray that i'll always be obedient.. to open my ears and listen out for His sweet, gentle voice.

"Honour God and He'll honour you.

//posted by ivy @ 18:32//

my presentation today went well thou i really din prepare much. finished it at ard 1 plus last night den today go hum tump..wahahaz.
being the last to present certainly din help at all. my tutor decided to change the order and started from the back..leaving me quivering and shivering while patiently waiting for my turn to come.

had lunch, den discussion for report after dat. came home with yanyang and chee wei.

feels nice. at least, we still get to meet up.

nothing much to do now. cos my brain is stoning.
so i shall wait till 8pm before i start doing my work..
- prepare for sharing tmr
- read my texts. as usual.. those that were supposed to have been read weeks ago! hehz.

tmr is gonna be a long day.. lessons den straight to cell. how tiring.
i start to dread wed nowadays.. but at the same time, look forward cos of the time in cell.

dearie having term break this week.. but i dun think i get to meet up much with him too. haiz.. hurhur. =)
my group ppl want to meet on sun to discuss our presentation next week..and i objected violently.
den they change to sat.. no difference manz. so i still objected.
wahahaz.. but think it's still gonna be on sat. i shall leave early den.. since there's meeting.
wat a long weekend..

and on top of that, i got a test next wed. haiz.

nvm.. looking on the brighter side of that.. it's still gonna be a fruitful and fantastic week. =)

NB: what a whiny update.. =(

//posted by ivy @ 18:21//

Monday, August 25, 2003

monday blueeeee.

i slept quite a lot. zzzz at ard 12 plus last night till 11am today. whahaz.. im really tired.
now have to rush my work liao.. hahaz. i juz finished my accts readings, moving on to tut qns soon.
and after that, i've to prepare for a presentation tmr.
topic is to promote the greatest attraction for a first-time visitor to singapore.

dun you think it's a hard topic? it's hard for me. =(

okie.. slacking a while online now. my eyes are tired from books. hehz.

oh yeah, i think i should be able to make it for the retreat in oct. not really cfm but well, i told tina i can make it ler.
supposedly have a 40% presentation that day but since deepavali is now changed, the tutor should push it either backward or forward rite? so yup..theoretically speaking, i should be able to go.
and it's... Sofitel again! wahhaaz..
but it's a nice place. comfy and cool..for a retreat.

//posted by ivy @ 17:59//

Tuesday, August 19, 2003

my weekend had been packed.
like sardines in a can.
first time ever.. and that's probably why i still find it rather unbelievable that i got thru it.
alive and kicking still.

table is piling up with notes unread.
books untouched.
i heaved a sigh of relief though the pile is building up.
somehow.. somehow.. somehow..
i dun feel that stressed. hahz.
take things in my own stride..

this is a more relaxing week. perhaps the least packed with deadlines, assignments.
but after this, i wun have such luxury anymore. i flipped through my organiser juz now.. and i *flipped
it's packed. full of scribbles and words describing my assignment agendas and projects stuffs.
im not complaining.
because im doing something which i like. the passion and liking is there still.

someone asked me if i regret coming in HR.
and my immediate gesture was to shake my head.
and im not regretting. wun regret.

okie.. time for me to take a break. to take a breather. to let my brain have a short rest. (which means tv time!!)
and at 1030... i'll start my readings again.

am i hardworking? i dunno.
danwen commented that he has never seen me so hardworking in the one yr plus he's known me.
he said: "wah! u very piah this sem hor? how come ah?"

and i juz went "really meh?"..
i din realise. but anyhow..anyway.. i want to do well mahz. =)

"excellence in what i do"..is perhaps my motto this second half of the year.

EXCELLENCE

Excellence is dedication
To a job that's hard to do
Going the extra mile
And trying to follow through

Excellence is communication
Sharing everything you know
And learning how to listen
So your expertise will grow

Excellence is appreciation
Of the talent that you see
Acknowledging a job well done
Inspires success and loyalty

Excellence is aspiration
With a higher goal in mind
To trust in God
And reach for things of a more rewarding kind

~Jill Wolf.

//posted by ivy @ 21:00//

Friday, August 15, 2003

ahhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think i got no life..
my entire weekend is taken up by proj discussions and of cos, proj itself! oh manz..
grrrr.. i needa get a life..or rather alive!

//posted by ivy @ 22:20//

Wednesday, August 13, 2003

helpppppp!!
i need to find a SME or GLC company which is dealing in electronics to conduct a hr interview.
and it's so hard to find. the MNCs are easier..
=(

a long long day today. and it's such a tiring seminar. we're asked to do manpower planning! and it's like throwing us into the big ocean to canoe when they haven even taught us how to paddle! grosssss..
eight of us.. and yet, we can't come up with the solution.
bad rite?

rushed down for prayer meeting after that.. came back home and ate my dinner..and now slacking.
supposedly to do stuffs.. but my brain desperately needs a break from hr.
mayb i shld juz sleep and deal with those stupid stuffs tmr..
cannot take it.

brain freeze..

//posted by ivy @ 23:50//

Tuesday, August 12, 2003

wo hao lei ah..hao duo shu yao du, wo de tou yao bao zha ler!
ren jia shuo wo hen hao, yin wei bu yong zhuo gong ke.. bu guo ta men dou bu zhi dao wo men you hao duo hao duo dong xi yao du!
du lai du qu dou du bu wan de! qi si ren ler..

i give up.
this is making my brain work even harder! =(
im here to vent my frustrations and complaining to all online! wahah..
everyone seems to agree.. the readings can kill! grosssss..

i had a good night rest last night..
somehow.. my mind drifted into semi-consciousness before i managed to fall asleep and sweet memories juz popped up.
they mainly lingered around the period of wat happened during chinese new year season..
so sweet.
to the extent i wished i din fall asleep that fast..
=)

//posted by ivy @ 23:12//

Friday, August 08, 2003

im in need of so many things..
here's my shopping list.

i need sleep
i need supper
i need energy
i need oxygen (i keep yawning!)
i need a massage =)

okie, that's about all for now.
and i suppose im going to get myself some rest.

oh ya, my fyp has changed to a confirmed one.
im now doing fyp with yanyang and huijun.
i hope i din make the wrong choice.
=)

good night.

//posted by ivy @ 23:03//

i haven blog for a long time eh..
not much time to blog too.

i rather spend my time sleeping! whahaz..

school has been good despite the 3 projects at hand; r/s with my new classmates are fine too. (except for *****)..
hahaz!!!! i haven even spoken a single word to him! am i mean? hmmm.. hehz.
sometimes juz smile only lor.. but he's keeping a low profile lately too.

anyway, let's drop school. sianz.

my stomach is growling. the only food i had today was a plate of fried rice at 1.. hao er ah!!!
and i got readings to complete tonight. and tmr morn b4 music prac. and sun night (if possible..but i dun think so). and mon!

off to look for food.

//posted by ivy @ 18:33//

Friday, August 01, 2003

second week into school.. and it's so obvious we're all getting tired and sleepy in class.
not that we're not sleeping enough.. but i guess the lessons are getting heavy.

more things to understand, more concepts to grasp..
and so much more independent or rather group learning. my tutor dun spoonfeed anymore. in fact, sometimes i dun even know what's he talking about. whaah!!
*switch off* is the word.

having a long day tmr. accts lect from 830-1030.
after which, my group is meeting up for articles evaluation and some presentation thingy which i figure will end at ard 12 plus.. that leaves me some time for lunch before going down to sac for d-class..
and after which, im going out with dearie.
it's gonna be a long long day.. but im sure im gonna have a nice nice day too! =)

good night.

//posted by ivy @ 23:08//