*the love and grace of God in my life..*

Tuesday, April 29, 2003

S-T-R-E-S-S-E-D

yeah.. something that you haven hear me say for weeks huh?

starting to feel a little worried lah.. now that i have got juz few days left and im still struggling with my maths modules.. argh!!

anyway, things will be fine.. yep, im sure of that. yep!!

have a nice day ahead! *smile.

//posted by ivy @ 13:26//

Thursday, April 24, 2003

*braindead.. -_-'

after doing last sem's stats paper! im going N-U-T-S!! arghh...

i hate stats.. and trust me, after u get the chance to do it, u'll never like it!! rite arlene?

can't believe im spending the entire semester doing somethin i hate in JC and now, im in danger of failing the module! argh..

~~stats is horrible, terrible, disgusting!! yucks.. eekss!!!~~

somehow, it seems good that it's my first paper.. then at least i dun have to go thru the agony of waiting the arrival of stats exams.. get it over and done with! and forget all about it...[unless i...~~dabao?~~].. choy choy choy!!!!!

*looks for a piece of wood.. touch touch!

yup, im exhausted from maths liao. enuff for today. tmr going down school. my tutorial mate going thru the paper with me and shun-bian explain accts stuffs with me. wad good fren i have rite? thank God manz..

i realised all of them have been really nice.. i couldn't really remb the number of ppl or the number of times they have come to me and said that i cld call them if i need any help in accts.. let's see.. norman, yen pin, beng chuan, danwen, aaron, elwyn, ... and of cuz charlie and gilb. ahahz..

all guys! u know why?? cos poor gals of my batch have no chance to be in commerce faculty and thus, no accts!

okie dokie.. enuff blogging.

im once again reminded of the song that goes ...
God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
so when u dun understand
when u dun see His plans
when u dun see His Hands
*Trust His Heart.*

//posted by ivy @ 21:19//

Tuesday, April 22, 2003

around 2 more weeks to my exams. hmmm, cos of the 2 weeks postpone thingy, the exams seemed so far away now! haha..
but well, i better thank God for it still..

yup, woke up at 11 plus today! not bad eh.. hurhur.. actually wanted to sleep more but somewhere is having renovation work, drilling every morning. noisy eh..

juz reminds me of my last sem's exams. it was like the exact same thing. i cldn't study at home cos my neighbour was drilling her house upside down.

yup, going to do some work then bathe then go for tuition ler.

//posted by ivy @ 14:48//

Monday, April 21, 2003

i dun like sunday. i dun like the things that happened yesterday.

and juz as i thot i can get some nice moments at night, i din. things juz had to turn out bad.'

*chuck it aside.

today shall be a better day. =)

//posted by ivy @ 11:18//

Thursday, April 17, 2003

ntu library ought to be upgraded. hurhur..

have been studying at np library these 2 days and i simply love the environment. so condusive. perfect for studying..except that it's cold! but well, all libs are cold..unless u hide in the toilet..

dear has been busy rushing his assignment these few days.. yep, take care of urself yea?

im staying at home today..trying to finish up my entire fm readings.. most likely or rather 100%, i'll be out tmr to study. it's good fri and my parents are going to temple, got major event as i overheard. but none of my biz.. yup.. will see how.

in the meanwhile, im craving for food..--satay, otak, and roti prata!! yum yum...*dRooL

//posted by ivy @ 12:27//

Monday, April 14, 2003

arghz.. i dun like today. dunno why.

im not in the mood to do anything. went with mum for check-up this morning.. early in the morn! afternoon had tuition. and guess what? yea..that stupid gal forgot to pay me again! grr!! time to charge interest on unpaid fees!

i spent the entire day simply reading 20 pages of stats! can't believe it.. that is pathetic. and consider that i was up at like 8am! dohz.. -_-.

dear mentioned a little abt his assignment juz now in icq. hmm..things dun seem good..but well, too bad i can't do it for u ah.. hmm.. yep, u do take care in the midst of stressing for assignment eh? =)

someone come give me a slap or a kick.. im still stoning.. *pengz

//posted by ivy @ 21:04//

back after a long day out with dear.

met him after his outreach meeting. watched a show at jp. 'johnny english'.. so farni! dumb show lah.. mr. bean's style. what do u expect rite? but it's a really relief-stress show! hahaa... makes u laugh and drool at the same time! [duhz..i dun hor!]..

after that..went dear's house to catch another show he downloaded. hurhur. movie marathon eh? it's a long ago show called 'happy gilmore' by adam sandler. comical show oso.

after which.. we spent like hmm.. two hours? doing some sharing and of cuz prayers! yup, and then im back home eating my dinner and now, blogging! yep.. long day but i enjoyed myself. every single moment of it. =)

not staying online for long. rather tired liao. long day tmr oso. gotta bring my mum for treatment at polyclinic early in the morn den tuition in the afternoon and then have to study oso! this week cannot afford to slack liao.. haha.

enjoy ur week ahead. :P

//posted by ivy @ 00:07//

Sunday, April 13, 2003

this is a wrong time to be at home. yes, i know it! and im surprised when i woke up and found myself looking at the hp which reads 10.45AM!!

there was of cuz a morning sms sent by dear but hmm, guess i was too deep in dreamland to hear the 'beep beep'. and juz when i thot i slammed down my alarm when it rang, i realised that.. i forgot to set my alarm last night! dohz... -_-.

anyway, nothing special these 2 days lah. fri was spent doing a little reading, going for tuition with my new tution kid (so..effectively, i got two tuition kids now! one sec 3, one sec 4 and they know each other! diaoz..) and then went for dinner with dear at westmall. he was there with sindric before that doing some catching up. haha.

sat was nothing much also. went with mum to polyclinic to clean her wounds, down to sac for a mini-meeting with eric and a few of us den music prac. thou im not playing..but hmm.. waiting for someone mahz. keke. went for dinner at plaza den went to his house a while to do up my dad's income taz thingy. aiyo..cos my comp has got no java machine!! grr!!

was going to sleep last night when suddenly a thought came to me. it's regarding camp theme and theme verse and guess what? the camp song too! and then i realised how much it ties in to what eric shared in the afternoon. hmm.. will pray abt it still of cuz. and gotta see gilby's side too.

yup..today is the first time dear is playing bass in wac eh..and i happened to miss it. oopse.. haha..

okie..off for lunch. my mum cooked liao. so early..diaozz

//posted by ivy @ 11:40//

Thursday, April 10, 2003

*headache* ah!!

wad else? if u dun get it, ask me then. i'd gladly tell you of cuz. but then again..if u din get it by now, i think you're kinda slow

anyway, wun be blogging much these few days. wanna concentrate on my revisions. super lagging lehz..

all you out there..take care eh?

//posted by ivy @ 19:05//

Wednesday, April 09, 2003

two weeks of postpone seems a luxury now.. to the extent im not even studying these few days! sigh.. they shldn't have announced it so fast eh? anyway..it's exactly a month to the start of my first paper.

*pinch myself..

im still in dreamland. hurhur.

//posted by ivy @ 12:19//

Tuesday, April 08, 2003

mum is home. still down with fever cos her operation wound still a little infected if im not wrong.

she still complained of weird feeling at times. dunno what she means but i think is feeling uncomfortable? after all, she's not totally well yet.

NUH stepped up on their checks on visitors liao.. all visitors will be required to fill up forms and have their temperatures taken before they are allowed to enter the premise.

anyway.. no more NUH! yeah... haha. well, i din really enjoy going there lehz..*duhz..

nothing to blog liao bahz. k.. all take care eh? =)

//posted by ivy @ 21:44//

Monday, April 07, 2003

juz came back from NUH. mum is much better now. her stomach dun hurt liao, except for the operation area. but..the farni thing is that.. cos she has been stayin in bed for a week, her legs are quite stiff now. and they are quite fat too! hurhur. she says it's like elephant legs! hahaa.

will be discharge tmr. can't believe she has been in there for ten days liao.. it seems as though it's juz 5 or 6 days.

juz read the news about the two new deaths of sars. so poor thing. esther mok (the first index case in singapore) is still hospitalised with the sars but she has infected both her parents; dad was the first to pass away and now, her mum died too, even after receiving the serum from a recovered patient. guess she's too critically ill to fight sars.

well, fear is gripping many in singapore. in NUH juz now, i saw so many ppl wearing masks.
yes, we can do all the prevention we want but ultimately, the future of us all still lies in His Hand. and of course, i trust that He has a perfect and wonderful plan for you and me.
let's continue to place our trust in Him, even in this period of fear and anxiety. Our God is too big to be underestimated!

//posted by ivy @ 21:42//

i slept for a total of 14 hours!~~ power ah..

yawn.. and i was still going to sleep more if not for the fact that, i suddenly realised i have one powerpt slide undone yet and it's due at 1230 later. whoa..

yup, but it's rather simple so i figured i will juz take around 30 mins to get it done.

mum still in hospital. dun think the docs will let her out today or tmr, they have been extracting some liquid from her stomach area, where she had the operation and the daily extraction muz be less than 50 mg before she can be discharge. they usually take the readings at 7am but last night at 8pm, the reading was oredi more than 50 mg so yup, today confirm cannot discharge. fever is back cos her infection is back.. so she's still hooked to the antibiotics drip. 3 packets of 200 mg per day. whoa.. i think there's a lot!!

anyway, it's comforting to know that she's much better oredi. at least, now is the healing process, she dun feel the pain like last week anymore. yup.. i've been so tired doing my own work as well as house chores. can get quite tiring at times when my dad simply refused to cooperate. so irritating when he juz leaves his utensils there after eating. he can't even be bothered to throw them into the sink; he juz put them at the dinner table!! grr.. lazy bum!!

dun think i can do much work today anyway but i'll see how.

oh yeah.. had a nice time yday watching movie with zhong, marie, rachel, angel, janice and jon. catched 'just married'; quite a crappy show ah. hurhur. wad a honeymoon! haha.. unforgettable manz. but of cuz, i wun want that! ahaaha..

dear, how's the ulcer?.

tata~

//posted by ivy @ 11:03//

Sunday, April 06, 2003

*closes eyes, bows head and prays*

Lord, you heal those down with sars and other physical illnesses.
comfort those who have frens/families/loved ones who are down with sars and other illnesses.
give strength to those medical staffs who are risking their lives to care for the sars patients.
your peace be among the rest of us as we go on our daily lives. grant us good health and a peaceful mind in the midst of things that are going on.
Amen.

a short prayer for all. God bless.

//posted by ivy @ 00:07//

Friday, April 04, 2003

today's accts tut was good eh.. haha. first time i went to class with my tutorial qns all completed. had to present one qn somemore.

after that, had tuition then social work last lect/tut.

met dear after that to go down NUH. mum looked much better liao.. though she is still hooked to the IV drip and urinary tract. yup, doc asked her to get up and walk a around a little, otherwise boney too stiff and she nearly fainted. oh my.. cos she haven eaten for 6 days ah. yup, they feeding her with fruit juice tonight, hopefully her body can absorb it and dun cause trouble. if things are okie and she's able to consume food oredi, then can be discharge on either mon or tues. *prays hard

after that, went clementi for dinner.. ate a lot eh. im so full now. hurhur.

kinda tired. think i will catch some rest soon. tata

//posted by ivy @ 21:53//

Thursday, April 03, 2003

din bother to attend stats cos i nv do tutorial. hur hur.

my mum is feeling much better now liao.. and guess wad? it's not appendix. it's some neglect by the kk docs when she gave birth to me like 20 years ago? haha.. they left some trail of cotton wools in her abdomen and over these years, they have disintegrated and now, affect her body system! i feel like sueing them! grrr..

and that new president of ntu is such an indecisive guy.. he's comtemplating of taking back his words that he'll postpone exams for 2 weeks simply cos some china scholars said that they wanna go back home earlier!! argh!! sars still wanna go back!!

final official announcement will come this afternoon at 4pm.. im praying super duper hard.

im hungry.. off for brunch.

//posted by ivy @ 12:03//

Wednesday, April 02, 2003

not having lessons today so woke up a little earlier.. wanted to do the laundry and iron my clothes but im a bit lazy now.. hurhur.

i do seriously pray/hope that my mum is much better now after the operation yday morn. though there's the slight pissed feeling with the doctors but i supposed i gotta look on the other side and thank God that He has sustained my mum, dad and i through it all. the docs called yday morning and said that they wanna do an operation.. but they mentioned that they have no agenda on mind; meaning they juz wanna open her up and see what's wrong since x-rays, scans, blood and urine test are okie. then my dad told them about the x-ray my mum took of her intestines juz a week before she was admitted, and asked them to call up SGH to find out more. they did and since there's nothing with that.. the main consulting doctor i/c of my mum more or less confirmed that it might be something to do with the appendix..and since it's been so many days, if they still dun operate, her life might be in danger.. so off to operation.

when i heard about this.. half of me was like going "what??!! it's simply appendix and those doctors took 2.5 days to find that out!! simply ridiculous." but the other half was like going "okie.. i have been taught since young that appendix is life-threatening and one has to go for an operation within 24 hours. otherwise the appendix will be spilling poison all over your body. well, regardless of whether there's true.. i do know that many of those i know who has such problem did went thru an op within 24 hours. that's why i was so shocked when i realised my mum has been hospitalised for 2.5 days before they decided to have the operation and they wanted that op initially not cos they found the reason but more of, to see what happened. so diaoz.. but well, God is faithful and His love endures...forever."

im juz so thankful for the things that have happened. it has taught me the valuable lesson of the power of prayer, the power of Him and the faithfulness that is new every morning. church mates and classmates have been rather supportive, both in my studies and spiritually. but the more impt thing is to see how God begins to work. so evidently.

i was rather worried over my exams preparation cos i only have 3 weeks to go and it's definitely not enough, considering that i started one month ago for my last sem and it wasn't enough too. then when i was over at NUH yday afternoon, my dad asked me to stay for a few hours, till night time to see how my mum would be after the op. and i was quite...hmm.. unhappy. cos i din have anything with me then, meaning i can't even do my readings so im juz 'wasting time'. could sense the desperation there and then sia. right, zhong? hurhur.
so when i received a msg from my fren, saying that school will remain open but exams postponed for 2 weeks.. it's like heaven to me at that time. there we were complaining that how come ntu never close for one week, otherwise more time to study. and wala.. God chooses a better one for us. still got lessons but two weeks postpone of exams! can't believe it. what a bargain? haha... God is so real.. no one can't deny that. what a testimony eh? *smile

zhong was with me when i went to visit my mum yday. thankfully he was there.. i hate going hospital alone but i think mayb that will happen tmr or fri since i gotta go fetch my mum when she's discharged. after that, he came over to my place.. 'cleaned' up my comp..haha [double meaning eh]..

yup, got no cell tonight so after going down to hospital later, can go out for a while. *hint* muhahahah...

//posted by ivy @ 11:45//