Monday, September 30, 2002

supposedly going to do my tutorial but a bit in the slacking mood..haha.
had mktg proj discussion juz now..think still a little messy here and there but hopefully the video-clip acts to our advantage. yeah?

[arlene]
hey gal..u take care of urself k? i know how it feels at this point of time where we got to choose and place our priorites but i guess through it all, we will make it through yah? remember im always here..same school..same cca..same church..same cell..i guess we can almost be like one another..haha. yup, and this is not the msg i meant juz now. u got to scroll a little downwards..ha. yup, u take care. i think i'll only see you on sun. cos we r not going for cell, i not going for crusade i think and d-cls oso..happy studying..*like we can?*

[yanyang]
hey boy..i wan my pretests and posttests back!! haha..still gotta lend it to huijun to zap and my test is on mon..so u better return to me asap!! k?? otherwise, if i fail my test..i'll hold u responsible. all liabilities are on you..hehz.

[mktg group people]
think we did a good job in our case presentation and so far, our proj is not that jialat..so muz piah a bit..den after friday, we can go celebrate liao..haha. yeah..~~ yup, so everybody, work hard, present well and we shall ..hmm..be happy!! hah..crappy..

[zhongfa]
i dunno if u'll read this but thanks for the concern shown. u take care of urself too k? esp with all the assignments and exams are juz around the corner..study hard..and rest well too..

[adeline]
hey gal, how are you? been quite tired these few days..and a lot of things to be done. i dunno if i'll go for DG this fri..i'll tell you. sometimes i wish i can share more with you but i guess it takes time. but juz wanna tell you that you have been a great DGL..and i feel a little bad at times when i din go for DG..continue to shine for Him yah? take care and study hard dearie..

okie..im tired liao..better go back to my tutorial or i'll never get to sleep tonight..zzz..yawnie..!!~~

//posted by ivy @ 21:24//

juz woke up and therefore, im skipping IT tutorial..
wah, first time skip tut leh..hehz

slept at 2+ last night..had such an exciting night..
went skool at around 8+ to film the video-clip but we did it till like 1+..haha. but we really had a lot of fun..laughed till i almost lost my voice..thought i had to take cab back but in the end din. had a ride from 'god-brother'..haha..thanks!!
trust me, i had a shock when u said u coming back hall..i was like 'wah!!'..hha.
shall attempt to finish up my biz law tut for tmr while typing this whole afternoon..hah..doing the mktg proj lor..SIANZ~~

//posted by ivy @ 09:57//

Sunday, September 29, 2002

sometimes or in fact now, i wonder how much i am loved by you guys and gals.
not much? much? much more?
i dunno..

it hurts..it reali does.

//posted by ivy @ 15:36//

[apologies]
hey tina, so sorry for leaving you alone to the games stuffs recently. haf been quite tied up with my skool proj and stuffs.

[thankew]
arlene..thanks for the concern. i was quite shocked when u asked to visit me..unexpected. thanks. u take care of urself too k? *u know what i mean..*

[SOS]
someone out there kind enough to help me do my mktg proj research? im kinda confused over the SWOT analysis and the michael porter's 5 forces..seems like i haven touched them before..and it definitely isn't helping when i got this headache hovering around me for the past few days. yday, it seemed i was getting well so i din eat medicine..maybe that's why..

[happenings]
supposedly going down to skool's canteen b to film a video-clip late at night..ard 9+..dunno if i'll go. even if i make it there, how am i supposed to come back? i doubt we will finish it by the time of the last bus of 179. tmr a long day too. got to type in all the info. into powerpt. and etc etc. blah blah bleh.

[interesting info.]
i have got a god-brother now..haha. guess who? hahaha.

//posted by ivy @ 12:45//

Saturday, September 28, 2002

sick sick sick gal...
thanks for the panadol gor..haha.~
feel slightly better now liao..hope i get better leh, got a long tiring week ahead..
and i mean long...

//posted by ivy @ 12:20//

Thursday, September 26, 2002

i feel sick the moment i wake up but still went for lectures.
had mktg discussion till 6 ...!!

tired..
sick..

sob sob

//posted by ivy @ 21:20//

Wednesday, September 25, 2002

im bored..
slacking now..
was like reading thru both chpts of my econs reading 4 this week and i almost fell asleep so i decided to come online..
shall go back to it later...

bah bah black sheep
have you any wool
yes sir yes sir
three bags full...

im obviously going crazy...argh..

//posted by ivy @ 16:42//

had mktg proj discussion b4 biz law tut..as usual, i was late so took a cab..$4..
went for biz law tut, nv tok at all today, din feel like, nothing to add on oso..
met germs for lunch/snack den adeline for ice-cream at mac..tok a little..
came home den met beng chuan for dinner again at JP..

not a very happening day..cos i made it not so happening..haha...

this is the song that doesn't end
and it goes on and on my fren....

//posted by ivy @ 00:31//

Monday, September 23, 2002

someone said i have a sweet voice when im on the phone...izzit true??
hhmmmmm
i dunno lor..cos i can't possibly hear myself when im on the phone..
HAHAHA~

//posted by ivy @ 22:46//

slept at 3+ last night..thanks to beng chuan...
was explaining the econs tut to him over the phone..
u owe me a lunch man..

IT tut was okie today, presented the x-word puzzle thingy, quite spastic..econs tut was okie too..managed to catch most of it.

met up with sharon wok for dinner den asked arlene down for a drink too at coffee bean. then went to buy some stuffs..haha!!~

thanks sharon, i guess i feel a little better..maybe not so fast but i know i'll get it over soon. yeah~ (",) hehz..

slacking now, shall go do my biz law later..
everybody take care yah?~

//posted by ivy @ 22:37//

Sunday, September 22, 2002

perhaps i shouldn't have obliged to myself in the first place. but it's too late to say/do anything now. things have happened; words have been said; enough has been done.

depressed.....is the word

//posted by ivy @ 23:44//

dun think i've felt the hurt so deep before for the last few days till juz now..
a simple click but something that hurts.

went back skool today for some stuffs, din go for youth. pastor said to give me 2 months for drums. i din even know what to react then. din know what or how to feel. the excitement chooses to hide itself. all that was shown was a smile to pastor.
well...

//posted by ivy @ 23:41//

thoughts flew by...

//posted by ivy @ 00:46//

Friday, September 20, 2002

had my presentation today and i guess we shld be able to do well. she said that our case study is very analytical..good. at least we can get rather good marks. project in 2 weeks time. argh. was so weird in the formal attire. the whole world is looking at us, wondering why we are dressed up so formally..well, biz students..

went with germs and norman to hall 5 for lunch, yakked for some time. went home to get changed and took a nap. late for biz law lect, what's new? reached at ard 445pm, she juz started anyway. lect was okie, for once, we listened and din tok much.

dinner with yanyang, danwen, steph and germs. crapped a bit, tok a little unrelated stuffs b4 i made a move for my tuition. tuition was okie lar, mainly on phy today. she asked for extra lessons for the next 4 weeks. so going twice a week. such a hardworking gal..can't stand it.

tmr got meeting for the leaders in youth camp, waste my time leh, go all the way down to cathedral..but no choice oso. got quite a lot of stuffs to do over the weekend.

never tok to you at all today, only sms thou. hope u are feeling better liao, not like me. ha. u take care..

//posted by ivy @ 22:26//

Wednesday, September 18, 2002

i have a dream
you have a dream
we all have dreams
to reach and to fulfill
times and times again
i felt myself losing the dream
that i once held firm and tight
so determined was i when the hurt began
to not let myself into misery once again
deep within me, the healing starts
it never got to the point it should end
i want my dreams back to me
a life once again restored...

life starts with a thrill after a frill
frens grew in amounts she couldn't feel
a close feeling; a dejected heart
wonder how life continues from this end
the wind beats against her face as it rode on
her hair dances in the air as she held on
the feeling inside her grew stronger as it goes on
and the darkness goes on and on

she held on firmly and tightly
fearing for her life dangerously
270 mins so timely
to get her thoughts go wildly
the cars sped by
the time goes by
the feeling of love
drains by the minutes

a talk went by
a thought went by
through the long waves
reaches the suave
a surprised tone
unbeliefs sweep by
convinced at last
by the voice which sounds sweet over the wires.

//posted by ivy @ 17:35//

yak yak yak

//posted by ivy @ 00:44//

Monday, September 16, 2002

IT presentation was okie..din do much so i juz blah..whateva stepf and clara told me.

did my econs tut till like 2 last nite, a little sleepy in cls but felt ok cos at least, i completed my tut.

passed to beng chuan my IT tutorial..he that big fat slacker

went danwen's room for discussion. polished up on the 'proton' case study. finally came up with a NEW idea on my mktg project. we decided to scrap the clothes boutique idea..and i think the new one is a lot better. how exciting..thanks to huijun. damien came after his lesson. we tok, yak, discuss, laugh. tok abt what to wear on fri oso. the guys are all wearing ties..whoa!!

slacking online now, supposed to do my powerpoint lah..but wait..do later..im a slacker..hahahah

twinkle twinkle little star
how i wonder what you are
high above the sky so bright
like a diamond in the sky
twinkle twinkle little star
how i wonder what you are...

//posted by ivy @ 19:42//

Sunday, September 15, 2002

sianz.

//posted by ivy @ 23:38//

at home at such an hour..
haha
cos i woke up at 945...
too late to rush for church.

tok to beng chuan till like 3 last night/this morning.
hey 'beng', hope u r not sick..(",)
i think im now..haha. sniffing, coughing
yup, thanx for the phonecall last night.
at least got things off my chest.
u were right..
i did feel better after telling you everything.
felt more 'relieved'..ha
thanks..

leading worship for youth later
got andrew to play guitar for me
hope things go well

din do any work yday..im 'dead'
wanted to try to do some stuffs yday nite but din
cos was on the phone for so long
been a while since i last chatted on the phone for sooo long.
muz try to finish up my econs later in the evening.
tmr still muz meet for mktg case study presentation discussion.
a bit sianz liao..hah

//posted by ivy @ 10:31//

went for music prac
good/bad
happy/sad

toking to beng chuan now
he is trying to cheer me up..

//posted by ivy @ 00:00//

Saturday, September 14, 2002

i love you
i love you not
i love you
i love you not

haha..the result of sleepiness.

wonder if "ah-beng" will call me tonite?
since i said i got some stuffs to tell him..
anyway, nvm.
not life/death issue

//posted by ivy @ 00:57//

Thursday, September 12, 2002

went for mktg lect early in the morn..
was late for 15 mins but what's new?
had mktg proj discussion after that
finalized our topic...

crusade worship was great..
a bit ga-bra here and there but all in all, i think it went well.
matt came up to me after that, said that i played well.
arlene too
thank God..

going to do my stuffs liao...

//posted by ivy @ 22:32//

Wednesday, September 11, 2002

[mood]
a little sleepy thou i slept till 10.30am. feels lethargic. dun feel like doing any work as yet but i know this is not possible. got mktg stuffs to do. IT oso. a little hungry but i gotta cook later. mummy's hand injured. can't touch water, in bandage. therefore, can't do many things. lucky i no skool today.

[activities]
finish up my presentation stuffs for mktg next week. print lect notes. do IT mcq. mktg tut. tuition later in the afternoon with the K2 kid.

[tingling feeling]
i miss you.

//posted by ivy @ 12:26//

Tuesday, September 10, 2002

hmm..arlene!! why u change with Sihui?? haha.
playing for crusade this thurs so had worship checkout today.
huizhi leading..sihui on keyboard..lena vocals..and me
guitar lah
what else?

good experience

that's all i will say and can say
we had checkout from 5+ till 9 but i guess we did a great job
went thru the songs again and again
my fingers are red now
RED!!

had a ride from beng chuan to nanyang hse
almost burst out in tears
exciting, thrilling but scary!

biz law tutorial was comical today
huijun was beside me and we were like....
crapping!
haha
din say much thruout the tut cos we dunno much this time

quite glad for my biz law class participation mark---A/B
meaning if i contribute this few weeks, i most likely can get an A
well, kinda unexpected
esp when i compare to ppl like SURIA..
who talks so much during class...haha

//posted by ivy @ 22:53//

Sunday, September 08, 2002

read oredi

that wasn't reali how i felt when i blogged that day.
im not that stressed..not to the point where i'll be sianz.
it's juz that i wanna finish up my undone work
and stop slacking..ha

when tina sees this, she's going to go 'hello....den what abt the nus ppl?'

i haven reali tok to you these few days.
sometimes, the sms seems invisible too
i know you are there and you care
but perhaps i juz need you to be more 'verbal'.

well..thanx for all the sharing in ur blog.
i wanted to tell you how happy i was when i saw you mixing with qiufeng, jiaren etc..
when u were having your dinner outside and all the girls were outside den..
at least, there is a turn
slowly

okie..i gotta go bathe liao..gonna be late if i dun
and marcus will skin me alive if i am..
haha.

//posted by ivy @ 09:06//

i love you
you love me
we are happy family

???

haha..this dun make any cow sense..

i know...

//posted by ivy @ 00:32//

anyone wans to study out tmr??
starting to feel the stress abt exams liao..
*braindead*

//posted by ivy @ 00:19//

Saturday, September 07, 2002

r u ignoring me?

fine.wadeva

//posted by ivy @ 14:26//

the more i study, the more i know.
the more i know, the more i forget.
the more i forget, the less i know
so

why study?

//posted by ivy @ 09:58//

went Bedok yday for biz law discussion with Beng Chuan and Junli..
though it was a little far and i had to cancel my tuition cos of that, but i guess it was one of those discussion which was reali worth going. i was practically stuck at my 2nd question till i met Junli and had a rough idea of what's required.
came home
called tina to discuss abt the camp thingy.
felt a bit unexcited about the camp...
maybe cos things are still very much not confirmed and we are like so drifted away as a camp com.
well..im not really surprised i guess.
tok to her about quite a number of issues to be discussed with eric and kailun.
wonder what will it be like.. *dun feel like thinking abt it..

yawn..yawn..
im sleepy..
it's currently 9.57am and im blogging oredi..
ha

//posted by ivy @ 09:58//

Thursday, September 05, 2002

finished my econs tut..
but...
that's no big deal..haha.
still got plenty more..

dun think i'll be going for discipleship this sat
going down to Heeren to interview an ex-NTU gal..
she opened a fashion shop and that happened to be my mktg project so..
we r going down to ask her some stuffs that will hopefully be of some help to our proj.

qiufeng sms me juz now
told me abt pastor telling her not to bring people to WAC
so i juz told her to think about it herself
why she is coming? izzit for the right reason? or izzit for *****
blah bleh...

i miss you boy..

//posted by ivy @ 22:36//

juz done my mcq for econs..
felt like blogging a poem juz now....
but..
well, dun ask me why that paragraphs of words..??
ha

always hear of people writing songs for God, to speak about His Love, Mercy, Grace...etc
suddenly felt like writing about the opposite..touching on the other aspect of how we look at things.

how satan has always held us firm in his hands till we chose victory over him
the pain he goes thru the very moment we said the sinless prayer
the hurt that torments him whenever we pray
whenever we talk to God
whenever we seek His will
whenever we say
I LOVE YOU, LORD!

//posted by ivy @ 15:13//

you will never understand how i feel
the pain that struck me so hard and real
i held you tight in my arms and hands
but you chose to leave my fists and clench.

the deep hurt in within
when you accepted Him
i've lost all control
i've lost all of you

however hard i try
no matter how i pry
you simply cry
not to me but Him

the pain inside me
the hurt torments me
everytime i hear
the voice of you and Him

--satan's heart cries out

//posted by ivy @ 15:06//

Wednesday, September 04, 2002

i finally finished keying in all the data for my IT project..
now i've done my part..ha.
going for tuition soon.
and soon..today will be over..
without me doing much
AGAIN!!

oh well..

//posted by ivy @ 14:41//

Remember the time when we both shared a room?
Remember the time when we both shared a bed?
Remember the time when we both shared a bathroom?

That was so long ago..
during family camp

that was the time when i first got to know you more,
when we simply crapped and crapped the whole camp
it was a great camp
a time to know you (and Tina),
a time to feel God
a time to study (for my exams)
a time to crap together (evil evil)

i miss your cheery smiles den,
the voice which made me laugh even when we were sleepy
when we were tired.
the cranky jokes and little talks we had
when we were splashing in the bathroom

Ger..be strong
God will be there always.

i love you.
haven been talking to you and i dun think u'll read this but..
i still wanna blog..

//posted by ivy @ 14:40//

Monday, September 02, 2002

let's see what have i got to do this week.....

IT project
biz law assignment
marketing case study
marketing project
and......
catch up with my text readings!!

busy

bbuussyy

//posted by ivy @ 14:05//

my frens juz left...had IT discussion juz now
about the E-R diagram
tuition cancelled today cos the kid is at uncle's house
wanna play so tuition is now changed to ......
tmr!

going to meet Zhongfa tonight..for drums
wonder if Si'er is coming along?

okie
gal go do work liao
brrhhh

//posted by ivy @ 13:58//